Yay! We finally got our own place, and it is out of Dayton. That in it's self is exciting. We are still in the process of moving though, seeing as I have jacked up my back pretty bad, and it has just been Bob and I moving everything for the most part.
I love the new place, although, I must admit, it is a little nerve racking, and stressful starting all over, and venturing out on our own. We probably picked the worst time of year to move, but oh well. I guess we will manage. We had to buy a lot of stuff, and then Christmas on top of it, but moving took priority, so...Christmas is going to be cut short. We will make it up with income tax...maybe.
I am looking for some sort of job, maybe part time or something. Just to have play money pretty much, until work picks up for Bob. I am trying to get hooked up with a work from home job like a good friend of mine has. That would be perfect for me. We shall see what happens.
Both of the kids are pretty excited about the new place, and both are excited, but scared at the same time, about starting a new school. They are used to going to schools that only have 2 grades in them, or in Dawson's case this year, 1 grade. After the Christmas break they will be going to schools that are K-5 and 6-8. Huge difference. Maybe they will be able to make friends easy. I am sure they will, I just hope they do not become the subject of bullying. I really do not want to have to go through hell with a new school district.
I have not withdrawn them from Dayton yet, because apparently that is an all day process. So, when school starts back up from the break, Dawson will go to school in Dayton for 1 day, and while he at school I will check Keigan out and then go check him out. That way he can be at his class party that apparently got put off for some reason. I don't know.
Anyway, I am taking a break from organizing the house, and I am watching Teen Mom2 with Keigan and figures I would post something seeing as I have not done so in a while. I keep telling myself that I need to post more often, but I just don't ever make myself.
Oh yeah, we have an Elf On The Shelf. Her name is Stormy, after my mom, and she was living in our new home they day that we got the keys. Keigan found the book in the kitchen and then found the elf hanging from her light in her bedroom. So far our elf has not played any tricks, just simply moves each night. So far she has not forgotten to move. Thank God! LOL! I think maybe she will play a trick soon. We did get a late start with the tradition, seeing as it was well after Thanksgiving that we got her, and not to mention that Keigan is 8 years old now, and though she says that she believes in Santa, surely she doesn't, but either way, I am not going to tell her, and she likes to play along and so as long as she has fun with it, I will continue to do it. This is something that she can pass along to her kids, and Dawson will be able to do the same with his kids. I should have bought 2 of the dang things. Maybe I will buy another one next year for Dawson. I dunno.
Until next time....
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Punk Kids!
Today has not been such a good day. It damn sure was not the day I expected it to be...sitting around the house playing my stupid games on Facebook, and doing laundry.
I do not want to sound raciest, because I am not, but a few months ago some mexicans moved out here next door to us, (on my old property) and every since then things have been happening to my stepdads 18 wheeler. We couldn't prove anything so nothing was ever said or done about it. A week or so ago, my stepdad said something to the kids about riding their go-kart through the yard and doing donuts in the driveway slinging rocks all over the yard and tearing up the driveway. 2 weeks ago, my aunt that lives across the street had an iPhone and about 8 packs of cigarettes come up missing out of her house. No cops were called, a big deal was not made of it. They replaced the phone, bought more cigarettes and said none of the kids were allowed back in her house, other than family. Well, they decided to let these kids back in their house, give them the benefit of the doubt about the first iPhone being stolen and not being able to prove who stole it, they were allowed back in, but only under adult supervision. After my aunt made everybody leave and later they all went to bed, these kids went back in the house took 487 dollars out of her purse, a Nintendo DS, a remote control helicopter, cigarettes, and ice cream out of the freezer. When I found all this out, I walked across the street and my aunt was there in the front yard with all these kids, one of their parents, and trying to get the cops to come back out there but could not get anybody to answer at the Sheriff's office. I called the cops, got someone to answer and had the deputy come back out to the house that had already been out there to make the initial report. Let me say also that there were 3 kids involved. 2 white kids, only one that lives out here, the other lives in a different city, and the mexican boy. Before the deputy could get back out here the mexican boy who denied having anything to do with going into the house and taking anything or having any of the stolen property, was slowly but surely giving everything back. The only thing that was not being given back was the last 2 hundred dollars and the iPhone 3. Well, my aunt said that if she got EVERYTHING back, that she would not press charges and that is when the mexican boy when in his house and got the last 2 hundred dollars and gave it back. The iPhone was still missing and nobody was giving it back. The white kids from Mont Belvieu was saying the mexican kid had, and the mexican kid was saying that he did not have it. Once the cop got there and handcuffed the white kid that lives out here, the mexican fessed up as to where the phone was. The cop put cuffs on the mexican and stuffed him in the car too. Scaring the shit out of these kids. Well, the white kid anyway. About this time, Bob calls me. He was at lunch at work and seen his gas door thingy looked funny and so he opened it up and it was full of sugar. He had me check my car, and it was full of sugar too. Thank God I had not started my car. The deputy called in and had the dispatcher make him another call sheet for criminal mischief. He drove to my house to look at my car and get that report going, with these kids in the back seat of the cop car, in hopes that the camera in the car would catch them talking about the damage to my car. My aunt didn't press charges on anybody because she got all of her stuff back, and I could not press charges because we had no proof that these punk ass kids did that to my car. I left with my stepdad in his truck to take him to pick up his work truck and then when we got back to the house, he decided to look at his boat and it is destroyed as well. I have to call the deputy back out here in the morning so that he can take pictures of everything and add it to the case.
So, I am worn out, stressed to the max and I have not even given any thought to dinner, and I am starving!!!
I do not want to sound raciest, because I am not, but a few months ago some mexicans moved out here next door to us, (on my old property) and every since then things have been happening to my stepdads 18 wheeler. We couldn't prove anything so nothing was ever said or done about it. A week or so ago, my stepdad said something to the kids about riding their go-kart through the yard and doing donuts in the driveway slinging rocks all over the yard and tearing up the driveway. 2 weeks ago, my aunt that lives across the street had an iPhone and about 8 packs of cigarettes come up missing out of her house. No cops were called, a big deal was not made of it. They replaced the phone, bought more cigarettes and said none of the kids were allowed back in her house, other than family. Well, they decided to let these kids back in their house, give them the benefit of the doubt about the first iPhone being stolen and not being able to prove who stole it, they were allowed back in, but only under adult supervision. After my aunt made everybody leave and later they all went to bed, these kids went back in the house took 487 dollars out of her purse, a Nintendo DS, a remote control helicopter, cigarettes, and ice cream out of the freezer. When I found all this out, I walked across the street and my aunt was there in the front yard with all these kids, one of their parents, and trying to get the cops to come back out there but could not get anybody to answer at the Sheriff's office. I called the cops, got someone to answer and had the deputy come back out to the house that had already been out there to make the initial report. Let me say also that there were 3 kids involved. 2 white kids, only one that lives out here, the other lives in a different city, and the mexican boy. Before the deputy could get back out here the mexican boy who denied having anything to do with going into the house and taking anything or having any of the stolen property, was slowly but surely giving everything back. The only thing that was not being given back was the last 2 hundred dollars and the iPhone 3. Well, my aunt said that if she got EVERYTHING back, that she would not press charges and that is when the mexican boy when in his house and got the last 2 hundred dollars and gave it back. The iPhone was still missing and nobody was giving it back. The white kids from Mont Belvieu was saying the mexican kid had, and the mexican kid was saying that he did not have it. Once the cop got there and handcuffed the white kid that lives out here, the mexican fessed up as to where the phone was. The cop put cuffs on the mexican and stuffed him in the car too. Scaring the shit out of these kids. Well, the white kid anyway. About this time, Bob calls me. He was at lunch at work and seen his gas door thingy looked funny and so he opened it up and it was full of sugar. He had me check my car, and it was full of sugar too. Thank God I had not started my car. The deputy called in and had the dispatcher make him another call sheet for criminal mischief. He drove to my house to look at my car and get that report going, with these kids in the back seat of the cop car, in hopes that the camera in the car would catch them talking about the damage to my car. My aunt didn't press charges on anybody because she got all of her stuff back, and I could not press charges because we had no proof that these punk ass kids did that to my car. I left with my stepdad in his truck to take him to pick up his work truck and then when we got back to the house, he decided to look at his boat and it is destroyed as well. I have to call the deputy back out here in the morning so that he can take pictures of everything and add it to the case.
So, I am worn out, stressed to the max and I have not even given any thought to dinner, and I am starving!!!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Is it really Thanksgiving already?
Yeah so it has been a while since I have posted. I guess I just have not really had anything to say, or maybe I have just been too busy playing those stupid games on Facebook, to even worry or care about posting? Who knows?
So not, Thanksgiving is only a few day away. This is of no importance to me what so ever. Is that mean? I do not like the traditional feast, so I opt for Jack in the Box. I have never liked it. Well, I do like my Aunt Rosana's ham, but that is about it.
Then, after Thanksgiving....my very least favorite holiday....Christmas. I have not been a fan of Christmas for probably the last 13 years or so. I am not really sure why, but it just got worse when I had children of my own. That sounds so silly, but I ALWAYS had a great Christmas when I was a kid. It was my moms FAVORITE time of the year, and she shopped ALL YEAR. I guess that is why I always such a great Christmas. She was not waiting until this time of year to be out getting gifts, and spending so much money at once. I am positive this is the reason. I have said many times, I am going to start doing that, but....I never do. I will make a vow to myself to start doing it this year. We shall see how it goes. HAHA.
I am a little more excited that normal about December getting here, but that is because we are moving. The bad part, well, not that it is bad, but still, I do not want to live in Baytown. I do not want my kids in Baytown schools, but that is probably where we are moving to. Either way, I am beyond excited about getting out on our own. Things are not really bad where we are right now, but that could change any moment, and it is just time.
Umm, whatelse?....................I am thinking about going back to school. I have a few things in mind, but we shall see how it works out. We are also planning to take the kids on a cruise in September. I am pretty excited about that, even though it is a year away.
Well, I am pretty sleepy. Haven't been sleeping well at all. Keep thinking about things that we need when we move, moving, new schools, etc. Not to mention, our mattress SUCKS and we need a new one.
Short, random, and I am going to bed. <3
So not, Thanksgiving is only a few day away. This is of no importance to me what so ever. Is that mean? I do not like the traditional feast, so I opt for Jack in the Box. I have never liked it. Well, I do like my Aunt Rosana's ham, but that is about it.
Then, after Thanksgiving....my very least favorite holiday....Christmas. I have not been a fan of Christmas for probably the last 13 years or so. I am not really sure why, but it just got worse when I had children of my own. That sounds so silly, but I ALWAYS had a great Christmas when I was a kid. It was my moms FAVORITE time of the year, and she shopped ALL YEAR. I guess that is why I always such a great Christmas. She was not waiting until this time of year to be out getting gifts, and spending so much money at once. I am positive this is the reason. I have said many times, I am going to start doing that, but....I never do. I will make a vow to myself to start doing it this year. We shall see how it goes. HAHA.
I am a little more excited that normal about December getting here, but that is because we are moving. The bad part, well, not that it is bad, but still, I do not want to live in Baytown. I do not want my kids in Baytown schools, but that is probably where we are moving to. Either way, I am beyond excited about getting out on our own. Things are not really bad where we are right now, but that could change any moment, and it is just time.
Umm, whatelse?....................I am thinking about going back to school. I have a few things in mind, but we shall see how it works out. We are also planning to take the kids on a cruise in September. I am pretty excited about that, even though it is a year away.
Well, I am pretty sleepy. Haven't been sleeping well at all. Keep thinking about things that we need when we move, moving, new schools, etc. Not to mention, our mattress SUCKS and we need a new one.
Short, random, and I am going to bed. <3
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
9-28-2011
Well, I started back to the gym today. Of course the first person I see when I walk in was Contessa, my trainer that I had. I have not been to the gym in probably 2 months so of course she asked me where I had been. I simply told her the truth...EVERY WHERE BUT HERE. I mean what else was I going to tell her? Bob said I should have told her something about having back issues, but I didn't. Oh well, I am just happy to be going back, and I am hoping to keep with it this time.
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Things have been good here. Nothing really to bitch about. Some of you may notice that I have deleted a few blogs, and the reason I did was because I got to thinking last night that some of them have been down right hateful towards some of the people in my life. Those that have been there for me through it all. Let me just say that I know it does get stressful living with people, and having people live with you, I know this first hand, but I am so thankful that we have had a place to live for the last 2 and a half years. Things really have been good here for a while. I don't need any FaceBook messages telling me what I need to do, or anything else. I am 33 years old and I know what I need to do. Yes, there are some things that still bother me, but I will work through them. I look at it this way....December is right around the corner, and we will be moving in December. It is time. Time to get back out of the nest and move on. I can not wait!
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Tomorrow is the big day. Going to Ft. Worth with Ra-Ra, Mrs. P. and Patti. I love road trips...when you have good company, and I must say, I will be in great company. This should be really fun. We are going to a convention and with these ladies, I am sure there is going to some shopping and other stuff involved. Super excited.
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Well, I guess that is all for now. I need to get busy washing clothes and cleaning the kitchen.
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Things have been good here. Nothing really to bitch about. Some of you may notice that I have deleted a few blogs, and the reason I did was because I got to thinking last night that some of them have been down right hateful towards some of the people in my life. Those that have been there for me through it all. Let me just say that I know it does get stressful living with people, and having people live with you, I know this first hand, but I am so thankful that we have had a place to live for the last 2 and a half years. Things really have been good here for a while. I don't need any FaceBook messages telling me what I need to do, or anything else. I am 33 years old and I know what I need to do. Yes, there are some things that still bother me, but I will work through them. I look at it this way....December is right around the corner, and we will be moving in December. It is time. Time to get back out of the nest and move on. I can not wait!
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Tomorrow is the big day. Going to Ft. Worth with Ra-Ra, Mrs. P. and Patti. I love road trips...when you have good company, and I must say, I will be in great company. This should be really fun. We are going to a convention and with these ladies, I am sure there is going to some shopping and other stuff involved. Super excited.
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Well, I guess that is all for now. I need to get busy washing clothes and cleaning the kitchen.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
blah blah blah, blah.....BLAH
Ok, I really have no clue where to start. I have been trying to stay pretty busy, yet it has been at many failed attempts. Unless you count staying on Facebook more than 8 hours a day. Sad, I know. You don't have to tell me. I have been in such a funk lately, it is the only that requires minimal effort. We haven't been to the gym in over a month. Why? I have no clue. We can't seem to get on top of everything and stay there, bill wise. I am sick of living where we live. Just so many different things. On the up side, we did join a committee for the Pasadena Livestock Show and Rodeo. We can get in to every show for free, and we can each take 1 guest. We will be going to take the kids to see Kevin Fowler this weekend, but only because it is free. Lol. The AG's office is really pissing me off with my child support. I get it pretty much when they fill like giving it to me. They tell me that the only way I can get it on a regular basis is to have Scott change the paper work at his work, and then I will get paid every 2 weeks, on a regular basis. As of now, I get 2 payments a month, and it could be a payment one week, and another payment the next week, or it could be a payment one week, and 3 weeks later I will get another payment. It is such bullshit. Scott's work takes the same amount of money out of his check every 2 weeks, what is the freaking deal? Anyway, my point was, the rodeo is free, and seeing how shit happens, and too much came out of the bank account this week, and I have not gotten child support, we are broke.
I have been looking for a job, but it seems like there is nothing out there, or the places that I could get a job, it just would not pay me enough to work there for one reason or another. Make sense?
I will be going to Dallas at the end of the month with Bob's aunt. She owns a monogram business, and there is a convention that she goes to every year. We will be looking into the heat press and screen printing stuff, and maybe I can get into that, and work for her. I just need to make about 900 a month. That is not much.
Anyway, I need to get back to laundry for now.....
I have been looking for a job, but it seems like there is nothing out there, or the places that I could get a job, it just would not pay me enough to work there for one reason or another. Make sense?
I will be going to Dallas at the end of the month with Bob's aunt. She owns a monogram business, and there is a convention that she goes to every year. We will be looking into the heat press and screen printing stuff, and maybe I can get into that, and work for her. I just need to make about 900 a month. That is not much.
Anyway, I need to get back to laundry for now.....
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Ugh, Where should I start?
Well, I guess I will start with the fact that school has started back up and I am not the mother of an 8 year old 3rd grader, and an 11 (almost 12) year old 6th grader. Scary! School started Monday, and today is only Thursday, and I was already at the bus barn yesterday. They have changed all the buses around and have everything so messed up. There were kids still getting dropped off by buses at 9 pm, Monday. Dawson made it home on time, and Keigan was a car rider, so I did not have to deal with it really, but my cousin that is in the same grade with Dawson, and lives across the street, did not get dropped off until almost 7pm.
Yesterday was Keigan's first day to have to ride the bus home and so I waited and waited, and come 5 o'clock and she still was not home, I started getting pissed. Then as I am about to get into my car to go look for her because nobody will answer the phone at the bus barn, a brand new Ford Expedition pulls up at the end of my drive way and Keigan gets out. I asked her who the hell was driving her home, and she had no clue who the lady was, just said she was from the bus barn. I walked to the vehicle and the lady did not want to roll down the window and talk to me, but finally did, and just said she was told to bring her home. Her exact words were " I was just told to bring her and drop her off" and she tried to roll the window back up. This sent me into super pissed off bitch mode. She did not have an ID stating who she was, she would not tell me her name, or why she was bringing my child home in anything other than a school bus.
I loaded Keigan up in the car and ended up beating that lady back to the bus barn. The people at the bb tried to be shitty with me, and act as if Keigan had gotten on the wrong bus, which she had NOT, and then I told them I have already had my child placed in the wrong vehicle once before (whole different story) and they needed to understand where my concern was and where I was coming from. They calmed down and the tones in their voices changed when they knew I was not stupid, and neither was my child. I told them that for ABSOLUTELY NO REASON WHAT SO EVER, is my child to get into any vehicle other than a school bus or the Liberty County Sheriff, that they could have called me and I could have come and pick her up, but that my other major concern was the fact that the bus driver just flat refused to bring the kids home. (there were actually 4 kids that were taken home by the lady in the SUV) Keigan said as soon as they got on the bus, the driver said "yall live off of 1413, you are on the wrong bus but I will take you to the bus barn." HELLO, every kid on the bus lives off of 1413, she just did not want to have to turn or something. I have no clue, don't give a shit, but it better get taken care of and NOT happen again.
Thank God I only have to deal with the bullshit of this school district until December!
Anyway, the kids seem to like school so far. Well, except for Keigan maybe. She got in trouble yesterday, so she isn't so sure anymore. Apparently there is a little boy in her class that is getting adopted and Keigan and 2 other girls said something along the lines of he wasn't going to get adopted. Mean ass child of mine. I don't know how it was said, or if she was meaning it to be ugly, but it doesn't matter. I explained to her that she can not be mean, that it's called being a bully, and she can and will get into serious trouble. I explained to her that the little bot was probably so excited about getting a family and he wanted to share that with the class, and she hurt his feeling. Well, she was bawling by the time I was finished talking to her and she wrote the little boy a note telling his how sorry she was for saying something so mean about something that is so "SPESHELL" (special) to him, and would he please forgive her and she hopes they can be friends.
Hmm, I had so much to say, and now I am blank......Guess I need to start writing it all down on paper and then type it out and post it. lol
Yesterday was Keigan's first day to have to ride the bus home and so I waited and waited, and come 5 o'clock and she still was not home, I started getting pissed. Then as I am about to get into my car to go look for her because nobody will answer the phone at the bus barn, a brand new Ford Expedition pulls up at the end of my drive way and Keigan gets out. I asked her who the hell was driving her home, and she had no clue who the lady was, just said she was from the bus barn. I walked to the vehicle and the lady did not want to roll down the window and talk to me, but finally did, and just said she was told to bring her home. Her exact words were " I was just told to bring her and drop her off" and she tried to roll the window back up. This sent me into super pissed off bitch mode. She did not have an ID stating who she was, she would not tell me her name, or why she was bringing my child home in anything other than a school bus.
I loaded Keigan up in the car and ended up beating that lady back to the bus barn. The people at the bb tried to be shitty with me, and act as if Keigan had gotten on the wrong bus, which she had NOT, and then I told them I have already had my child placed in the wrong vehicle once before (whole different story) and they needed to understand where my concern was and where I was coming from. They calmed down and the tones in their voices changed when they knew I was not stupid, and neither was my child. I told them that for ABSOLUTELY NO REASON WHAT SO EVER, is my child to get into any vehicle other than a school bus or the Liberty County Sheriff, that they could have called me and I could have come and pick her up, but that my other major concern was the fact that the bus driver just flat refused to bring the kids home. (there were actually 4 kids that were taken home by the lady in the SUV) Keigan said as soon as they got on the bus, the driver said "yall live off of 1413, you are on the wrong bus but I will take you to the bus barn." HELLO, every kid on the bus lives off of 1413, she just did not want to have to turn or something. I have no clue, don't give a shit, but it better get taken care of and NOT happen again.
Thank God I only have to deal with the bullshit of this school district until December!
Anyway, the kids seem to like school so far. Well, except for Keigan maybe. She got in trouble yesterday, so she isn't so sure anymore. Apparently there is a little boy in her class that is getting adopted and Keigan and 2 other girls said something along the lines of he wasn't going to get adopted. Mean ass child of mine. I don't know how it was said, or if she was meaning it to be ugly, but it doesn't matter. I explained to her that she can not be mean, that it's called being a bully, and she can and will get into serious trouble. I explained to her that the little bot was probably so excited about getting a family and he wanted to share that with the class, and she hurt his feeling. Well, she was bawling by the time I was finished talking to her and she wrote the little boy a note telling his how sorry she was for saying something so mean about something that is so "SPESHELL" (special) to him, and would he please forgive her and she hopes they can be friends.
Hmm, I had so much to say, and now I am blank......Guess I need to start writing it all down on paper and then type it out and post it. lol
Thursday, July 28, 2011
what to do, what to do.....
I am sitting here with the kids, watching Wipeout. I think I would love to go play on all the stuff, but not really be on the show. It is absolutely stupid with the commentary. I would watch the show on mute if the kids would let me.
Anyway, I am also sitting here thinking about all kinds of thing. Life and all that it brings, and doesn't bring. I sometimes with I was born into a family that was rich and famous, but not often. I am thankful for everything that I have in my life. I just hate the struggle at times.
I spent 2 years in cosmetology school so I could do hair, which I absolutely love doing, but I do not enjoy working in corporate owned salons, and Bob doesn't like it either. He would rather I stay home with the kids vs. working retail hours, and not really making squat. So that is what I do. I mean hell, I make more in child support than I did in 1 month at a Regis Corporation salon. That company sucks! I will never work for them again. But I am ready to go back to work. I need to go back to work, but I need to be able to not work every single weekend, or every single night. I know, beggars can't be choosers. I have been giving a lot of thought into going back to school, but I don't really want to spend the next 2 years in school not making money either. There is a place I can go to that is about an hour away and do medical billing and coding, and it would take about 7 months. They have financial aid, but the drive alone is a real doozy. Ugh. I am just at a stand still in my life right now. I want to do more, to be able to help better my family, but sadly, with the economy the way it is, does it really pay for me to go to work? I mean, it's not like there is anything close by, so I would have to drive, which, with gas over $3.50 a gallon, it would be costly. Thank God my car gets about 26 mpg. We are trying to rebuild credit, save money, and pay bills all at once, with only 1 person working. It doesn't seem to be working out so well at times. LOL. Again, I guess that is just how life goes, and don't get me wrong, I am not looking for pity, just venting I guess. We are ready to move, but we know we can not afford it at the moment, and though Bob makes great money at his job, his hours are not guaranteed, therefore, neither is the money. I still do not understand this whole I.L.A union stuff, but I just wish he was an "A" button, with what they call a "regular" job. That way he could only work Monday through Friday if he wanted too.
Well, I need to get off of here. My kiddos are about to leave for the weekend with their Dad, and we are watching a show together before they go.
Anyway, I am also sitting here thinking about all kinds of thing. Life and all that it brings, and doesn't bring. I sometimes with I was born into a family that was rich and famous, but not often. I am thankful for everything that I have in my life. I just hate the struggle at times.
I spent 2 years in cosmetology school so I could do hair, which I absolutely love doing, but I do not enjoy working in corporate owned salons, and Bob doesn't like it either. He would rather I stay home with the kids vs. working retail hours, and not really making squat. So that is what I do. I mean hell, I make more in child support than I did in 1 month at a Regis Corporation salon. That company sucks! I will never work for them again. But I am ready to go back to work. I need to go back to work, but I need to be able to not work every single weekend, or every single night. I know, beggars can't be choosers. I have been giving a lot of thought into going back to school, but I don't really want to spend the next 2 years in school not making money either. There is a place I can go to that is about an hour away and do medical billing and coding, and it would take about 7 months. They have financial aid, but the drive alone is a real doozy. Ugh. I am just at a stand still in my life right now. I want to do more, to be able to help better my family, but sadly, with the economy the way it is, does it really pay for me to go to work? I mean, it's not like there is anything close by, so I would have to drive, which, with gas over $3.50 a gallon, it would be costly. Thank God my car gets about 26 mpg. We are trying to rebuild credit, save money, and pay bills all at once, with only 1 person working. It doesn't seem to be working out so well at times. LOL. Again, I guess that is just how life goes, and don't get me wrong, I am not looking for pity, just venting I guess. We are ready to move, but we know we can not afford it at the moment, and though Bob makes great money at his job, his hours are not guaranteed, therefore, neither is the money. I still do not understand this whole I.L.A union stuff, but I just wish he was an "A" button, with what they call a "regular" job. That way he could only work Monday through Friday if he wanted too.
Well, I need to get off of here. My kiddos are about to leave for the weekend with their Dad, and we are watching a show together before they go.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
????
Well, it has been a couple of days since we have gone to the gym, and I am ready to get back in there. We will be going tonight when Bob gets home from work. I don't know that I have lost any weight, but I sure feel good after I work out. Tonight we will do some cardio, and resistance training.
Went to Schlitterbahn on Monday, and I don't think I want to go back. Last summer when we had season passes and went almost every weekend, my legs would itch like I had been ate up with ants. Well, same thing this time. It only happens when I go there, so I am thinking it is something they put in the water or something. I don't know, but it lasts for 3 or 4 days, and I can not stand it. I scratch my legs until I almost start bleeding.
Other than that, there is nothing really new going on. Just living, and being bored. Story of my life, I know. School is about to start, and so I think I will try to find some kind of part time job or something. I have been thinking about going back to school for medical billing and coding, that way I can work from home, but we shall see. I really wish I had it in me to go finish all my classes and get into nursing school, but I just don't think I can do it.
Oh yeah, Keigan's birthday is not this weekend, but the next weekend, and instead of the big 300+ dollar party she usually has, I think this year she will get to pick 3 people and take them somewhere and have fun. We will probably also go out to eat somewhere and people are more than welcome to come, but they have to pay for themselves. If we do that, then this is where we will have cake, and presents for those that want to bring presents.
Went to Schlitterbahn on Monday, and I don't think I want to go back. Last summer when we had season passes and went almost every weekend, my legs would itch like I had been ate up with ants. Well, same thing this time. It only happens when I go there, so I am thinking it is something they put in the water or something. I don't know, but it lasts for 3 or 4 days, and I can not stand it. I scratch my legs until I almost start bleeding.
Other than that, there is nothing really new going on. Just living, and being bored. Story of my life, I know. School is about to start, and so I think I will try to find some kind of part time job or something. I have been thinking about going back to school for medical billing and coding, that way I can work from home, but we shall see. I really wish I had it in me to go finish all my classes and get into nursing school, but I just don't think I can do it.
Oh yeah, Keigan's birthday is not this weekend, but the next weekend, and instead of the big 300+ dollar party she usually has, I think this year she will get to pick 3 people and take them somewhere and have fun. We will probably also go out to eat somewhere and people are more than welcome to come, but they have to pay for themselves. If we do that, then this is where we will have cake, and presents for those that want to bring presents.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Day 2 with the personal trainer
Well, I thought today was the end of me. I really felt as if I was going to die at the gym, but I didn't!
Today was my second meeting with Contessa, my personal trainer, and unlike my first session, I got a FULL workout. I did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine, which I am proud of, seeing as day 1, I barely made 5 minutes. We go to the gym everyday, and so I have been able to work myself up and go longer. The longest I have been on it it 35 minutes, and that was last night.
Anyway, I did my 25 minutes and the Contessa came and got me and we started my workout. The first thing we did made me feel like the elephants at the circus. You know, when they have the elephants stand on those blocks? She (Contessa) brought out this step thing this about umm, I don't know, bend your knee like you are climbing stairs, now raise your knee about waist high. I guess about 2 stairs high. Well, she showed me what to do, and so I did it. Being that I am right handed, and a little OCD, I started by putting right foot up on the elephant stand, and then I stepped up with my left foot, and then back down, but my right foot never left the thing. I did this 15 times, and trust me, it is harder than it sounds. I did it, and then it was time to switch feet. Hello, my right side is my strong side. Needless to say, I almost did not have the strength to pull my fat ass up, but I pushed through and I did it! Yay Tara! Next I did squats. Joy Joy! I had to lean against this giant ball, on the wall and roll down. I did this 15 times, and then we moved on to working on the upper body. I don't know what everything was called, but I did them all, 15 times each. 15 is my magic number. Then it was back to the same leg workout. I COULD NOT make 15 of each, but I did manage to do 12, and that was fine. The second time around on these exercises Contessa did make me sit down, but after about 5 minutes, I was ready to push on. I did not want to give up, and I didn't want her to think I was weak. We finished the legs, went back to the upper body, and then crunches. I did 50 crunches, and boy am I feeling it.
Before I go on, I have to tell you, that I was really doing 16 of everything because I hate ODD numbers.
I have one more session with Contessa, and that is Saturday, and Bob has a session with her too, but after that I will be the trainer. haha. Reason being, I have been through everything, and I know what to do, and how to do it. I think we will be fine. We will be able to encourage each other, and give each other just enough push. I can't say I am excited about my next session, but I will say that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE going to the gym. I feel so much better when I leave. I know it will be hard work, but I am not going to give up, and I am not going to let Bob give it up. If I am able to drop 80 pounds by this time next year, then you can expect the real wedding planning to start...given that we don't end up getting married before then. We shall see.
Today was my second meeting with Contessa, my personal trainer, and unlike my first session, I got a FULL workout. I did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine, which I am proud of, seeing as day 1, I barely made 5 minutes. We go to the gym everyday, and so I have been able to work myself up and go longer. The longest I have been on it it 35 minutes, and that was last night.
Anyway, I did my 25 minutes and the Contessa came and got me and we started my workout. The first thing we did made me feel like the elephants at the circus. You know, when they have the elephants stand on those blocks? She (Contessa) brought out this step thing this about umm, I don't know, bend your knee like you are climbing stairs, now raise your knee about waist high. I guess about 2 stairs high. Well, she showed me what to do, and so I did it. Being that I am right handed, and a little OCD, I started by putting right foot up on the elephant stand, and then I stepped up with my left foot, and then back down, but my right foot never left the thing. I did this 15 times, and trust me, it is harder than it sounds. I did it, and then it was time to switch feet. Hello, my right side is my strong side. Needless to say, I almost did not have the strength to pull my fat ass up, but I pushed through and I did it! Yay Tara! Next I did squats. Joy Joy! I had to lean against this giant ball, on the wall and roll down. I did this 15 times, and then we moved on to working on the upper body. I don't know what everything was called, but I did them all, 15 times each. 15 is my magic number. Then it was back to the same leg workout. I COULD NOT make 15 of each, but I did manage to do 12, and that was fine. The second time around on these exercises Contessa did make me sit down, but after about 5 minutes, I was ready to push on. I did not want to give up, and I didn't want her to think I was weak. We finished the legs, went back to the upper body, and then crunches. I did 50 crunches, and boy am I feeling it.
Before I go on, I have to tell you, that I was really doing 16 of everything because I hate ODD numbers.
I have one more session with Contessa, and that is Saturday, and Bob has a session with her too, but after that I will be the trainer. haha. Reason being, I have been through everything, and I know what to do, and how to do it. I think we will be fine. We will be able to encourage each other, and give each other just enough push. I can't say I am excited about my next session, but I will say that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE going to the gym. I feel so much better when I leave. I know it will be hard work, but I am not going to give up, and I am not going to let Bob give it up. If I am able to drop 80 pounds by this time next year, then you can expect the real wedding planning to start...given that we don't end up getting married before then. We shall see.
Friday, July 15, 2011
starting a new life style...oh boy
So, now that Bob is more than 3 months post-op of his lap-band surgery, we have decided to set out on our journey to a new life style. Being healthier, not only for ourselves, but the kids as well. In doing that, I know that we will struggle with the commitment that it is going to take, but I think as long as we are there to support each other, than we will be able to do it.
The hardest parts are going to be:
#1. STOP SMOKING
#2. DON'T GIVE UP WHEN THE WORKOUTS SEEM TO GET TOO HARD
#3. (for me) I HAVE TO ACTUALLY EAT MORE FOOD
I have am horrible about only eating once a day. The food we eat 90% of the time is fairly healthy, I think. I mean, we are not eating out all the time, we eat a lot of grilled chicken, or baked chicken. Not very much pork. Not a lot of junk food, but sometimes we do splurge and eat out and eat junk.
Today, I went to my first session with a personal trainer. She was awesome, and I wish I could afford more than the 3 sessions that I have with her. I may need it. Lol. Maybe later on, I will buy a group of sessions.
Anyway, today's workout was not a full work out because of all the other stuff we had to go over and do, but I am telling you, what work out I did get in, WORKED ME OUT. My legs felt like noodles after only 5 minutes on the elliptical machine, (which I hate to begin with) and I was dying after only 2 minutes. That is HORRIBLE, I know, but I will work my way up there. I have to do cardio at the very least. 5 times a week, for at least 45 minutes, working my way up to at least an hour. Keeping this fat girls heart rate above 146 the entire time. OH BOY! In doing all of this, I should be able to drop 2 pound per week. HAHA. We shall see how this works out.
I do not ever tell anybody how much I weigh, but I will tell it today. 268! OMG. This is the biggest I have ever been in my whole life, and I am sick of it. I was 215 when my second child was born. I want out of the 2's all together.
Wish us luck.....
The hardest parts are going to be:
#1. STOP SMOKING
#2. DON'T GIVE UP WHEN THE WORKOUTS SEEM TO GET TOO HARD
#3. (for me) I HAVE TO ACTUALLY EAT MORE FOOD
I have am horrible about only eating once a day. The food we eat 90% of the time is fairly healthy, I think. I mean, we are not eating out all the time, we eat a lot of grilled chicken, or baked chicken. Not very much pork. Not a lot of junk food, but sometimes we do splurge and eat out and eat junk.
Today, I went to my first session with a personal trainer. She was awesome, and I wish I could afford more than the 3 sessions that I have with her. I may need it. Lol. Maybe later on, I will buy a group of sessions.
Anyway, today's workout was not a full work out because of all the other stuff we had to go over and do, but I am telling you, what work out I did get in, WORKED ME OUT. My legs felt like noodles after only 5 minutes on the elliptical machine, (which I hate to begin with) and I was dying after only 2 minutes. That is HORRIBLE, I know, but I will work my way up there. I have to do cardio at the very least. 5 times a week, for at least 45 minutes, working my way up to at least an hour. Keeping this fat girls heart rate above 146 the entire time. OH BOY! In doing all of this, I should be able to drop 2 pound per week. HAHA. We shall see how this works out.
I do not ever tell anybody how much I weigh, but I will tell it today. 268! OMG. This is the biggest I have ever been in my whole life, and I am sick of it. I was 215 when my second child was born. I want out of the 2's all together.
Wish us luck.....
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Absolutely Appauled!
Count 1- Murder in the first degree murder.......NOT GUILTY
Count 2- Aggravated child abuse......................NOT GUILTY
Count 3- Aggravated manslaughter of a child.....NOT GUILTY
Count 4- Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 5-Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 6-Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 7-Providing false information to police.....GUILTY
This is the verdict in the Casey Anthony murder trial. The state of Florida, did a huge disservice in the justice of this 2 year old baby! That bitch knows damn good and well what happen to her child, and she isn't speaking. That alone makes her guilty, in my eyes.
I watched a good bit of the trial on TV, and as I watched the prosecutors, I knew they were doing a piss poor job, but I also figured the jury (seven of whom are parents) would find her GUILTY. There is evidence that a MURDER was committed, and it all points at Casey Anthony, yet, it was not enough? Really? The dead, decaying body was in the trunk of her car before being dumped. She was driving her car around, going out partying and getting tattooed while suppose to be looking for her "missing" child.
I am actually sick at my stomach and could go on, but I think I will take a nap now, and pray that someone does to that bitch just as was done to her baby!
Count 2- Aggravated child abuse......................NOT GUILTY
Count 3- Aggravated manslaughter of a child.....NOT GUILTY
Count 4- Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 5-Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 6-Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 7-Providing false information to police.....GUILTY
This is the verdict in the Casey Anthony murder trial. The state of Florida, did a huge disservice in the justice of this 2 year old baby! That bitch knows damn good and well what happen to her child, and she isn't speaking. That alone makes her guilty, in my eyes.
I watched a good bit of the trial on TV, and as I watched the prosecutors, I knew they were doing a piss poor job, but I also figured the jury (seven of whom are parents) would find her GUILTY. There is evidence that a MURDER was committed, and it all points at Casey Anthony, yet, it was not enough? Really? The dead, decaying body was in the trunk of her car before being dumped. She was driving her car around, going out partying and getting tattooed while suppose to be looking for her "missing" child.
I am actually sick at my stomach and could go on, but I think I will take a nap now, and pray that someone does to that bitch just as was done to her baby!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
HISTORY
Wow. My cousin Cathaline and I have been talking for more than a year about wanting to plan a family reunion for the Holland side of our family, so the other day, as she was at a reunion for her husbands family, she posted something about it again. Right then I decided to start a group on Facebook for the Holland Family, and with just a few hours, there were quite a few people in the group. Some of the people I know, but a lot I don't know at all.
Then, after someone who is related to us, but on the other side of the family, the Hendricks side, was added to the Holland group, I was asked if I could start a Hendricks group, so I did just that. Within MINUTES, there were a lot of people in that group, and I know very few people in there. Lol. To me, it seems this is the very interesting side of the family. Seems I am related to John Wayne, George Washington, possibly Sam Houston, and maybe even ELVIS! Wow! Who would have known? Surely not me. I have no clue as to how to go about finding all that out, but some people in my family have spent many hours, and undoubtedly, lots of money, tracking down or genealogy? We even have a family crest so to speak. It is a flying H. I had seen this my whole life, for as long as I can remember, but I just thought it was something that my dad had came up with and started drawing and painting it, seeing as that is what he was good at. Wrong.
Today I found out that in New Mexico, there is a place called "The Flying H Airport" and that is a family thing. My Grandma's Grandfather was killed in a plane crash there, along with his brother, and the brothers wife got everything. The Flying H Ranch, which was once believed to take up part of Texas, and a very large portion of New Mexico. It is now believed to be owned by more distant ancestors.
This is getting to be interesting to me. I will keep you posted as to what all I am able to find out.
Then, after someone who is related to us, but on the other side of the family, the Hendricks side, was added to the Holland group, I was asked if I could start a Hendricks group, so I did just that. Within MINUTES, there were a lot of people in that group, and I know very few people in there. Lol. To me, it seems this is the very interesting side of the family. Seems I am related to John Wayne, George Washington, possibly Sam Houston, and maybe even ELVIS! Wow! Who would have known? Surely not me. I have no clue as to how to go about finding all that out, but some people in my family have spent many hours, and undoubtedly, lots of money, tracking down or genealogy? We even have a family crest so to speak. It is a flying H. I had seen this my whole life, for as long as I can remember, but I just thought it was something that my dad had came up with and started drawing and painting it, seeing as that is what he was good at. Wrong.
Today I found out that in New Mexico, there is a place called "The Flying H Airport" and that is a family thing. My Grandma's Grandfather was killed in a plane crash there, along with his brother, and the brothers wife got everything. The Flying H Ranch, which was once believed to take up part of Texas, and a very large portion of New Mexico. It is now believed to be owned by more distant ancestors.
This is getting to be interesting to me. I will keep you posted as to what all I am able to find out.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Too much to do!
I have so many things I need to be doing, and yet, I am sitting here, in front of the laptop, and glued to the Casy Anthony trial. Tot-Mom, as they have started calling here. Right now her father, George Anthony is on the stand, and though I think he knows more about the killing of his grand daughter than what he is claiming, you would think he is the on that is on trial. I wish that Casey Anthony would just admit to what happen to the little girl, and get this all over with, and then I think she needs to be placed in general population in the prison system and let her be taken care of by the other inmates. She is one sick bitch.
I need to wash the few loads of clothes that have built up over the weekend and thus far during the week. I really do not want them to pile up like they were, but it seems that my "get up and go" has gotten up and left...and is nowhere in sight. Ahh, the story of my life.
I also need to make a list of stuff I need to get from the grocery store for this weekend. I will be making a huge cake Saturday. Bob wants it to look like a flag so it should be pretty simple. Ice the cake in buttercream, use fresh blueberries for the star area, and the raspberries for the red strips. It will be made of 4 sheet cakes put together, so...we shall see how it turns out.
Well, I guess I have nothing more to say right now.......
I need to wash the few loads of clothes that have built up over the weekend and thus far during the week. I really do not want them to pile up like they were, but it seems that my "get up and go" has gotten up and left...and is nowhere in sight. Ahh, the story of my life.
I also need to make a list of stuff I need to get from the grocery store for this weekend. I will be making a huge cake Saturday. Bob wants it to look like a flag so it should be pretty simple. Ice the cake in buttercream, use fresh blueberries for the star area, and the raspberries for the red strips. It will be made of 4 sheet cakes put together, so...we shall see how it turns out.
Well, I guess I have nothing more to say right now.......
Sunday, June 26, 2011
What a productive day we have had
We had a very busy, very productive day. I was able to get all of the bedding washed, all of the rooms cleaned and put back together in an organized manner, and so far I have made 2 beds. Not my favorite thing to do. Lol. I don't see a need to make Keigan's bed tonight, as #1. She is not home. She went to Ra-Ra's house with Genny and Denny. #2. She doesn't sleep in her room anyways. Lol. She claims she is scared, and there is no satellite in her room. Ugh. Poor baby. Lol. She does have a brand new flat screen tv with a built in DVD player, and some 400+ DVD's that she could watch.
I was also able to get my coupon binder all organized, according to the isles at H-E-B in Atascocita. That makes me EXTREMELY happy! Well, I say all organized..I am out of baseball card holders, so I need some more of those, and I still have some coupons to put in their slots...when I have slots for them. I also have more coupons to clip, thanks to Ra-Ra for getting me 3 more papers! YAY!!!!! Retarded huh? Oh well. I get my joy from it, and it saves us money.
I am so happy and content in my life right now, and I would not trade my life with ANYBODY!
I was also able to get my coupon binder all organized, according to the isles at H-E-B in Atascocita. That makes me EXTREMELY happy! Well, I say all organized..I am out of baseball card holders, so I need some more of those, and I still have some coupons to put in their slots...when I have slots for them. I also have more coupons to clip, thanks to Ra-Ra for getting me 3 more papers! YAY!!!!! Retarded huh? Oh well. I get my joy from it, and it saves us money.
I am so happy and content in my life right now, and I would not trade my life with ANYBODY!
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Well, Sunday came a day early. haha.
Well, we didn't wait until Sunday to do our grocery shopping. Instead we went today, and then on top of that, we took 3 kids with us. What the hell were we thinking? Na, it wasn't too bad. Everybody had a job. Keigan and Genny were taking turns pushing a "little" cart, and which ever one was pushing, the other was marking things off the list. Dawson was taking pictures of each of the isle markers, and holding the coupon envelope, and Bob was putting the stuff in the carts. Me, I was pushing the big cart.
We did get a lot more than we usually do, but spent about the same. We did get some FREE stuff this time, like bath soap, milk, glass cleaner, and maybe a few other things. I can't remember. I did not get 28 boxes of cereal, or 12 boxes of Fruit By the Foot, but we did get 4 more boxes of cereal, to add to the 4 that we bought last week. We did get 4 boxes of Fruit By the Foot, and we did get like 3 boxes of Pop-Tarts. 3-12 packs of Coke, got the 4th for free, and got a free 12 pack of Fanta. The kids were happy about that. They were also pretty stoked about the fact that we ate at CiCi's and they ate FREE, thanks to COUPONS. lol.
Now, before I tell you how much we saves, keep in mind, we are NOT trying to be extreme as seen on tv, although the kids would like for us to...so they can be on tv. When you see those people on the show, they are really only stock piling, and we are actually doing weekly FOOD shopping, hoping to save at least 40 or 50 dollars a week on the final bill, and so far we have done that. We have been able to pick up extra things here and there, just because we had coupons. I think we have done pretty good, and so far, I am still digging the whole COUPONING project as pf now, and I do hope to learn more, and get more, and eventually SAVE more, and MAYBE, get to the point were we can have a stock pile.
We spend anywhere from 150-175 dollars almost every week when we go shopping.
Today, before coupons, the total was 230.27
After coupons, 172.53
Total SAVINGS 69.20
I will take that any day of the week.
The only thing that made me mad about this trip, is we did not get catalinas for money off our next trip. ugh.
9:56 pm
We did get a lot more than we usually do, but spent about the same. We did get some FREE stuff this time, like bath soap, milk, glass cleaner, and maybe a few other things. I can't remember. I did not get 28 boxes of cereal, or 12 boxes of Fruit By the Foot, but we did get 4 more boxes of cereal, to add to the 4 that we bought last week. We did get 4 boxes of Fruit By the Foot, and we did get like 3 boxes of Pop-Tarts. 3-12 packs of Coke, got the 4th for free, and got a free 12 pack of Fanta. The kids were happy about that. They were also pretty stoked about the fact that we ate at CiCi's and they ate FREE, thanks to COUPONS. lol.
Now, before I tell you how much we saves, keep in mind, we are NOT trying to be extreme as seen on tv, although the kids would like for us to...so they can be on tv. When you see those people on the show, they are really only stock piling, and we are actually doing weekly FOOD shopping, hoping to save at least 40 or 50 dollars a week on the final bill, and so far we have done that. We have been able to pick up extra things here and there, just because we had coupons. I think we have done pretty good, and so far, I am still digging the whole COUPONING project as pf now, and I do hope to learn more, and get more, and eventually SAVE more, and MAYBE, get to the point were we can have a stock pile.
We spend anywhere from 150-175 dollars almost every week when we go shopping.
Today, before coupons, the total was 230.27
After coupons, 172.53
Total SAVINGS 69.20
I will take that any day of the week.
The only thing that made me mad about this trip, is we did not get catalinas for money off our next trip. ugh.
9:56 pm
Friday, June 24, 2011
I can not wait until Sunday!
No, there is nothing really going on, that I know of, BUT, I do look forward to getting my Sunday papers and clipping coupons. This is the new thing around this house, and we have only been doing it a few weeks, but I really enjoy it, and I enjoy going to the grocery store now. Before, I HATED going grocery shopping. I more than hated it. Detest isn't even a strong enough word to describe how I felt about it. Now...Now it is the highlight of my week. Sad, I know. Even more sad, We are not really bringing in big hauls, we have not dropped our grocery bill to 14 dollars, and we don't have a "stock pile" but what we have done is save over 40 dollars a week, and to me, that is fun. I know, easily amused.
Our first coupon adventure was to the local Kroger, and that was not bad. I figured we would spend a lot more than what we did, but we didn't. I think before my Kroger Plus card and my coupons, the total was almost 200 bucks, and then after everything was scanned, it was around 150ish?
We have since decided that our primary grocery store will be H-E-B in Atascocita. It is a little further to drive, but well worth it.
Now, I do have a friend who is also couponing, and she has gotten some great deals. Even gotten stuff for free! We have not gotten anything for free, but we have gotten some good deals. Like a 12 dollar razor for 2 dollars, an expensive tube of toothpaste for 1.47...stuff like that. I do plan on getting more into it, and trying to get it all figured out, as it seems that Leslie has. She just got 12 boxes of fruit roll-up and 28 boxes of cereal for less that 40 bucks! Hello, when is the last time you seen the price of cereal? That crap is expensive. I don't have any clue what I would do with 28 boxes of cereal, but I could sure use the fruit roll-ups. The kids love them, and I could have gotten some cereal, and spent less money. lol. Then on top of it all, she got like 15 dollars off of her NEXT trip. That is AWESOME!
I know, it's the silly things that make me so excited. I will try to keep ya posted as to how it is all working out.
7:03pm
Our first coupon adventure was to the local Kroger, and that was not bad. I figured we would spend a lot more than what we did, but we didn't. I think before my Kroger Plus card and my coupons, the total was almost 200 bucks, and then after everything was scanned, it was around 150ish?
We have since decided that our primary grocery store will be H-E-B in Atascocita. It is a little further to drive, but well worth it.
Now, I do have a friend who is also couponing, and she has gotten some great deals. Even gotten stuff for free! We have not gotten anything for free, but we have gotten some good deals. Like a 12 dollar razor for 2 dollars, an expensive tube of toothpaste for 1.47...stuff like that. I do plan on getting more into it, and trying to get it all figured out, as it seems that Leslie has. She just got 12 boxes of fruit roll-up and 28 boxes of cereal for less that 40 bucks! Hello, when is the last time you seen the price of cereal? That crap is expensive. I don't have any clue what I would do with 28 boxes of cereal, but I could sure use the fruit roll-ups. The kids love them, and I could have gotten some cereal, and spent less money. lol. Then on top of it all, she got like 15 dollars off of her NEXT trip. That is AWESOME!
I know, it's the silly things that make me so excited. I will try to keep ya posted as to how it is all working out.
7:03pm
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
sorry, i have been busy....
ugh, so summer is here, and that is good. it means i don't have to get up and get kids dresses and to the bus stop. unfortunately, it also means my kids are gone about a week at a time with their dad. that's not the bad part. the bad part is that when they come back, it takes almost a week to get the back to the way they are somewhat suppose to act! it's like they go over there and there are really no rules, they do what they want, when they want. not to mention that their nannie (who they stay with while their dad is working) is very sick and having issues with her mental health. falling in the bathroom, saying she is getting lotion for keigan, only keigan wasn't there. arguing that its morning when its 8 at night...the list goes on. i was told that neither of them would be left alone with her, but that was a lie. dawson was left to care for her on day 1 of their visit. oh well, what can i do about it? nothing. i was told that he was left there to take care of her if anything happen...hello, he is only 11! it is not his job.
anyway, so they are home for a couple of days now, and will leave again friday to go spend fathers day weekend with their dad and then they will be back sunday evening or monday sometime. tomorrow we are going to the wave pool. i am excited about that.
i have some other things that are bothering me too, it too has to deal with the kids being at scotts. i don't call them everyday that they are with him because i want to give them time with their dad with out me interrupting them, but when i do talk to them, its like they feel that they can not talk to me, or that they have to hide stuff or something. i don't know how to explain it. my recent conversation with dawson went like this: "hey bud, what are you doing?" "just watching tv, i love you bye" "dawson, i am not finished talking to you! where are you at, what are you doing" him "ok, i love you, bye" me "what the hell is wrong with you, i asked you a question and i expect an answer, and i expect it now. i don't care who you are with, you will speak to me when i call" him, "we are at dads girlfriends house" so i asked where she lived, and i get a wrong answer yet again, and i tell him to put his sister on the phone, who does almost the same shit! she is usually a chatter box, so this really set me off. i can't help but wonder how many different women scott is going to bring into their lives, and i did ask him that. he claims that this is the last one....if this relationship doesn't work out. hello, you should know if its something serious and going to work, at least for a while, before you bring the kids into the picture.
yes, bob and i officially got together days before my divorce was final, but we had been hanging out, JUST AS FRIENDS, for a while, and then it was the end of october before i let him meet the kids, and that was at his request. i told him my thoughts as to why i did not want him meeting them, and he assured me that he was not going to walk out of our lives, so here we are, almost 2 years later.
well, i guess that is enough of my rants for now....i have a lot of stuff to get done before i can take these kiddos to the wave pool tomorrow, so i better get to it.
8:51pm
anyway, so they are home for a couple of days now, and will leave again friday to go spend fathers day weekend with their dad and then they will be back sunday evening or monday sometime. tomorrow we are going to the wave pool. i am excited about that.
i have some other things that are bothering me too, it too has to deal with the kids being at scotts. i don't call them everyday that they are with him because i want to give them time with their dad with out me interrupting them, but when i do talk to them, its like they feel that they can not talk to me, or that they have to hide stuff or something. i don't know how to explain it. my recent conversation with dawson went like this: "hey bud, what are you doing?" "just watching tv, i love you bye" "dawson, i am not finished talking to you! where are you at, what are you doing" him "ok, i love you, bye" me "what the hell is wrong with you, i asked you a question and i expect an answer, and i expect it now. i don't care who you are with, you will speak to me when i call" him, "we are at dads girlfriends house" so i asked where she lived, and i get a wrong answer yet again, and i tell him to put his sister on the phone, who does almost the same shit! she is usually a chatter box, so this really set me off. i can't help but wonder how many different women scott is going to bring into their lives, and i did ask him that. he claims that this is the last one....if this relationship doesn't work out. hello, you should know if its something serious and going to work, at least for a while, before you bring the kids into the picture.
yes, bob and i officially got together days before my divorce was final, but we had been hanging out, JUST AS FRIENDS, for a while, and then it was the end of october before i let him meet the kids, and that was at his request. i told him my thoughts as to why i did not want him meeting them, and he assured me that he was not going to walk out of our lives, so here we are, almost 2 years later.
well, i guess that is enough of my rants for now....i have a lot of stuff to get done before i can take these kiddos to the wave pool tomorrow, so i better get to it.
8:51pm
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
an end in sight
i am finally starting to fell better after what has seemed like an eternity of having a cold. yesterday was the first day that i made it all day with no fever. i am still coughing, and have the nasty nose, but i feel better and that is all i care.
i am glad the weekend is over. the kids were at their dads for the weekend, and bob did not work all weekend, so that allowed me the chance to sleep in...not that i did really, but still. i could go back to sleep if i wanted to, and it was nice knowing that. we really didn't too much this long weekend, but that was ok too. bob did ask me to go on a date, and i went, even though i was still really sick, and then it ended up not being much of date because we had a tag-a-long. we went and seen the hangover 2 and it really sucked. i did not like it. we also spent one day with family and went to sams club to get some stuff that dawson had to have for the last day of school, and then yesterday we grilled steaks and people were here at the house. it was nice.
the kids also came home yesterday, and they had a good weekend. they went to a crawfish boil saturday and went swimming, then they went to the boardwalk, and then out on the boat. when they came home everything was fine. no sunburns or anything. after a while, keigan started having a wild fit saying her back itched, and it felt like she had fire ants in her skin on her back. long story short, she wanted to go to the er, so i took her, and her dad met us there. it was a 6-8 hour wait and we were able to make her believe that she would be fine and we would get some lotion that would make her feel better, and we left the er, unseen, and headed to cvs. got her some lotion and went about out business. the only reason she acted a fool was because there was a house full of people. once she was in the car, she was fine, and she did not say anything else about her back until her dad showed up at the er, then it was back to acting like a fool. she is all better now, and at school.
well, that is all i have for the moment....
1:28pm
i am glad the weekend is over. the kids were at their dads for the weekend, and bob did not work all weekend, so that allowed me the chance to sleep in...not that i did really, but still. i could go back to sleep if i wanted to, and it was nice knowing that. we really didn't too much this long weekend, but that was ok too. bob did ask me to go on a date, and i went, even though i was still really sick, and then it ended up not being much of date because we had a tag-a-long. we went and seen the hangover 2 and it really sucked. i did not like it. we also spent one day with family and went to sams club to get some stuff that dawson had to have for the last day of school, and then yesterday we grilled steaks and people were here at the house. it was nice.
the kids also came home yesterday, and they had a good weekend. they went to a crawfish boil saturday and went swimming, then they went to the boardwalk, and then out on the boat. when they came home everything was fine. no sunburns or anything. after a while, keigan started having a wild fit saying her back itched, and it felt like she had fire ants in her skin on her back. long story short, she wanted to go to the er, so i took her, and her dad met us there. it was a 6-8 hour wait and we were able to make her believe that she would be fine and we would get some lotion that would make her feel better, and we left the er, unseen, and headed to cvs. got her some lotion and went about out business. the only reason she acted a fool was because there was a house full of people. once she was in the car, she was fine, and she did not say anything else about her back until her dad showed up at the er, then it was back to acting like a fool. she is all better now, and at school.
well, that is all i have for the moment....
1:28pm
Friday, May 27, 2011
still not feeling so well
i am still not feeling so well. now the horrible cough has set in, and it sucks. its deep in my chest and it hurts like hell. i did manage to go to the store and get me some vicks vapor cough medicine, and i will be using it tonight, and it should work. it did last time anyway. i looked for some nasal tampons (rhino rockets) but of course walmart does not carry them. damnit. lol. i am sure i would look real cute walking around with one shoved in each side of my nose. hmm. i bet i could make it on peopleofwalmart.com if i had them shoved in there and was walking around the store? oh well. i just hope i kick this crap by the end of the weekend, and then i guess the next time we go on a mini vacation i will just have to stay there so i don't get sick when we come back. yeah, sounds good to me. haha.
yesterday was keigan's awards thing at school and she got an outstanding achievement and star student award. i was proud of her. even more proud because the teacher that awarded it to her, is the teacher that she thinks hates her. lol. why she thinks that is beyond me. i mean, i am sure it has nothing to do with the fact that damn near every conduct mark that she has gotten has been from that teacher. lol. it's so funny when she gets a mark too, because of course she was never doing whatever it was that she got the mark for. (usually talking)
also yesterday, dawson got to drive golf carts at school. i think it is for the students who pass the taks or something, and last year they were given some t-shirts and drove golf carts. this year, i don't know how they still managed to drive the carts because they told the students they could not get shirts this year because it is against the law to reward them for passing the taks?!?! what kind of shit is that? dawson made 100's on all portions of the test and i think that all the kids that passed should be rewarded. that's just me.
well, i guess i am done. i don't feel good and i am going to bed.
1:09pm
yesterday was keigan's awards thing at school and she got an outstanding achievement and star student award. i was proud of her. even more proud because the teacher that awarded it to her, is the teacher that she thinks hates her. lol. why she thinks that is beyond me. i mean, i am sure it has nothing to do with the fact that damn near every conduct mark that she has gotten has been from that teacher. lol. it's so funny when she gets a mark too, because of course she was never doing whatever it was that she got the mark for. (usually talking)
also yesterday, dawson got to drive golf carts at school. i think it is for the students who pass the taks or something, and last year they were given some t-shirts and drove golf carts. this year, i don't know how they still managed to drive the carts because they told the students they could not get shirts this year because it is against the law to reward them for passing the taks?!?! what kind of shit is that? dawson made 100's on all portions of the test and i think that all the kids that passed should be rewarded. that's just me.
well, i guess i am done. i don't feel good and i am going to bed.
1:09pm
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Summer colds, and more....
So yesterday I woke up with a horrible cold. Runny nose, itchy eyes, sneezing, the whole nine yards. Well, I would almost rather have the flu than a cold, and I would damn sure rather puke than sneeze. I am not sure why, but that is a true story. I need to find some rhino rockets (nasal tampons) to stick up my nose to keep snot from just randomly running. Then on top of all that, I have the most horrible cramps, which I never had until I had kids. Wonder why that is?
Keigan is suppose to be getting an award today at school. I can't help but wonder what she is getting an award for. She was not on the honor roll, she did not have perfect attendance. I keep thinking it must be the motor mouth award? I dunno, but I will find out at 2:30. Final grades are in, so I wish they would just let the kids out of school already. I am ready to not have to get up and get them ready for school. Well, I guess it doesn't matter because it's a snowballs chance in hell that Bob is going hear the alarm to get up in the morning. lol. Oh well, it's ok because I actually enjoy getting up, and making his coffee and lunch and seeing him off in the mornings when he has to get up.
I had other random stuff to write about, but now my mind is blank, so....
10:36am
Keigan is suppose to be getting an award today at school. I can't help but wonder what she is getting an award for. She was not on the honor roll, she did not have perfect attendance. I keep thinking it must be the motor mouth award? I dunno, but I will find out at 2:30. Final grades are in, so I wish they would just let the kids out of school already. I am ready to not have to get up and get them ready for school. Well, I guess it doesn't matter because it's a snowballs chance in hell that Bob is going hear the alarm to get up in the morning. lol. Oh well, it's ok because I actually enjoy getting up, and making his coffee and lunch and seeing him off in the mornings when he has to get up.
I had other random stuff to write about, but now my mind is blank, so....
10:36am
Monday, May 23, 2011
Our First Family Camping Trip of 2011
Me, Bob, the kids, Ra-Ra and Patti, left Thursday, the 19th, to go to Concan, Texas! I had never been there before, but I knew it was right by Garner State Park, and I have wanted to go there for many years and float the Frio River, so I was excited.
We stayed in a cabin at a place called Frio Country and it was so beautiful. Anyway, I will recall the weekend the best that I can...
Thursday-We got on the road headed out west about 12 I guess. We stopped in Luling, Texas at BUC-EES, which is my favorite store. If you have never been to a BUC-EES, then you would not understand. If you have been to one, then you probably have the fever, yet when you think about it, you aren't sure as to WHY IN THE HELL you like the store so much, as it really isn't anything more than a convenient store...that has tons of stuff, and this particular one has 49 toilets. LOL. Anyway, we kill about 45 minutes in the store and hit the road again, and not stopping again until we get to Uvalde. That is where we stopped at Wal-mart to get some groceries.
We get to the place we are going at around 7pm I guess. I was excited! Not only to be there, but also knowing there was a tv in the cabin and I was going to be able to watch the season finale of my favorite show, Grey's Anatomy....WRONG! The tv didn't work, I didn't have service on my phone to be able to try to watch it on youtube or something, but all was still good. It was actually really nice being somewhere away from here, and facebook, and texting, and so on. (however, I am glad to be back to my electronic life) We got everything unpacked and the kids could not wait to get to the water.
The Cabin
The Frio was a little on the low side, but we just spent 6+ hours to get here, so we were going to have a blast anyway. We did find more water than this, but this was the first picture I took as I was walking down to the water with everybody.
going into the swimming hole
Dawson, Bob, and Keigan
My water baby. Well, One of them.
Keigan cooking sausage
Friday, May 20th- Keigan and I were the first 2 people up, and she wanted to cook breakfast for everybody, so I let her. She made breakfast tacos and did not need very much help! (I think she has watched me do it a few times. haha) She also made coffee before waking everybody up. She is such a sweet little girl and sometimes I wish she would stay this age. Lord knows I am not ready for her to develop an attitude like her brother! LOL.
Later, after everybody ate and got motivated, we went and got our tubes and headed out in search of somewhere to float the day away. The people at the store that we went to to get the tubes and air them up told us of a good spot, but they were telling us that we were going to have to float the river backwards. Hmm. I was understanding what they were saying, but everybody else to seemed to be kind of lost as to what the hell the lady was telling us. Oh well, we headed off to the first crossing, just as we were told, and we put our tubes in the water on the north side of the crossing, and headed UP river. The water was not flowing fast at all, and we enjoyed our swim up the river. The kids were having the time of their life, playing in the cold, crystal clear water. They had goggles and they were catching little fish with a hand held net that Ra-Ra had brought. Once we reached a point that we would have had to have taken the tubes, raft, cooler and everything else, out of the water and walk a good bit, we just stopped and played a while before starting our journey back down river.
The end of the journey UP river
After being in the water for more than 5 hours we went back to the cabin to eat. Eating is always better in the woods, and I have never understood that, but I just love it! We were just about finished eating when a hummingbird decided to join us...by way of landing on Keigan's arm and trying to get "nectar" out of the polka dots on her swim shirt. It was funny, but crazy at the same time. I have NEVER seen a hummingbird get so close to people, or even land on something long enough to stop flapping their wings, but this one did. More than just once or twice. This silly bird was with us for the rest of the day pretty much. After eating, of course the kids wanted to go back in the water, so we headed down to the first swimming hole from day 1. I stayed down there for a while, and then headed back to take a shower, leaving the kids with Bob and Ra-Ra. On my way back, the bird landed on me, and not knowing what it was, I flung it off, only for it to return just a second later. It landed on me again and I took about 15 steps and it flew away, but didn't go far. It followed me all the way back to the camp, and would fly around every so often until we all went inside and went to bed. We never seen the bird again for the rest of the trip!
Saturday, May 21st- Today we headed over to Garner State Park. I have always wanted to go here, and I am so glad that we went. We went to ROCK BEACH and it was awesome! The water was colder, but felt so good. It was deeper and just as clear as the water we had been in the days before. There a lot of people there, but everyone was so friendly, and the kids of course had a blast just being in the water. Today was pretty much "Dawson's day" because he spent the day climbing rocks and cliffs and jumping the river, and swinging off of rope swings. There was a teenage couple that was helping all the younger kids climb safely to where they needed to be so they could jump, and I wish I would have told them how thankful I was for them, and how great it was to see them being so helpful. The girl helped Dawson so much, and she never took her eye off of him while he was trying to climb the side of the cliffs. Though he is still sore from such a workout, I think he had the time of his life.
Sunday, May 22nd- Today was the end of our mini vacation. We packed up, loaded up, and headed out. A 5 hour ride turned in to 10 and half hours because we got sidetracked and went to San Marcos and went to the outlet malls. We will be going back there!!!!
We stayed in a cabin at a place called Frio Country and it was so beautiful. Anyway, I will recall the weekend the best that I can...
Thursday-We got on the road headed out west about 12 I guess. We stopped in Luling, Texas at BUC-EES, which is my favorite store. If you have never been to a BUC-EES, then you would not understand. If you have been to one, then you probably have the fever, yet when you think about it, you aren't sure as to WHY IN THE HELL you like the store so much, as it really isn't anything more than a convenient store...that has tons of stuff, and this particular one has 49 toilets. LOL. Anyway, we kill about 45 minutes in the store and hit the road again, and not stopping again until we get to Uvalde. That is where we stopped at Wal-mart to get some groceries.
We get to the place we are going at around 7pm I guess. I was excited! Not only to be there, but also knowing there was a tv in the cabin and I was going to be able to watch the season finale of my favorite show, Grey's Anatomy....WRONG! The tv didn't work, I didn't have service on my phone to be able to try to watch it on youtube or something, but all was still good. It was actually really nice being somewhere away from here, and facebook, and texting, and so on. (however, I am glad to be back to my electronic life) We got everything unpacked and the kids could not wait to get to the water.
Later, after everybody ate and got motivated, we went and got our tubes and headed out in search of somewhere to float the day away. The people at the store that we went to to get the tubes and air them up told us of a good spot, but they were telling us that we were going to have to float the river backwards. Hmm. I was understanding what they were saying, but everybody else to seemed to be kind of lost as to what the hell the lady was telling us. Oh well, we headed off to the first crossing, just as we were told, and we put our tubes in the water on the north side of the crossing, and headed UP river. The water was not flowing fast at all, and we enjoyed our swim up the river. The kids were having the time of their life, playing in the cold, crystal clear water. They had goggles and they were catching little fish with a hand held net that Ra-Ra had brought. Once we reached a point that we would have had to have taken the tubes, raft, cooler and everything else, out of the water and walk a good bit, we just stopped and played a while before starting our journey back down river.
After being in the water for more than 5 hours we went back to the cabin to eat. Eating is always better in the woods, and I have never understood that, but I just love it! We were just about finished eating when a hummingbird decided to join us...by way of landing on Keigan's arm and trying to get "nectar" out of the polka dots on her swim shirt. It was funny, but crazy at the same time. I have NEVER seen a hummingbird get so close to people, or even land on something long enough to stop flapping their wings, but this one did. More than just once or twice. This silly bird was with us for the rest of the day pretty much. After eating, of course the kids wanted to go back in the water, so we headed down to the first swimming hole from day 1. I stayed down there for a while, and then headed back to take a shower, leaving the kids with Bob and Ra-Ra. On my way back, the bird landed on me, and not knowing what it was, I flung it off, only for it to return just a second later. It landed on me again and I took about 15 steps and it flew away, but didn't go far. It followed me all the way back to the camp, and would fly around every so often until we all went inside and went to bed. We never seen the bird again for the rest of the trip!
Saturday, May 21st- Today we headed over to Garner State Park. I have always wanted to go here, and I am so glad that we went. We went to ROCK BEACH and it was awesome! The water was colder, but felt so good. It was deeper and just as clear as the water we had been in the days before. There a lot of people there, but everyone was so friendly, and the kids of course had a blast just being in the water. Today was pretty much "Dawson's day" because he spent the day climbing rocks and cliffs and jumping the river, and swinging off of rope swings. There was a teenage couple that was helping all the younger kids climb safely to where they needed to be so they could jump, and I wish I would have told them how thankful I was for them, and how great it was to see them being so helpful. The girl helped Dawson so much, and she never took her eye off of him while he was trying to climb the side of the cliffs. Though he is still sore from such a workout, I think he had the time of his life.
Sunday, May 22nd- Today was the end of our mini vacation. We packed up, loaded up, and headed out. A 5 hour ride turned in to 10 and half hours because we got sidetracked and went to San Marcos and went to the outlet malls. We will be going back there!!!!
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
11 year old boys....make me want to shoot myself!
I am not sure what the hell the problem is, but I have had ENOUGH! It's like Dawson woke up on October 13, 2010, his voice sounded a little different, and his attitude really went to shit! The attitude was already going to shit before his birthday, but it's like over night, maybe he got a peach fuzz down south and decided he was a man or something. He went from an all the time all A student to bringing home 50 somethings on progress reports. Acting out at school, getting conduct marks DAILY, doing his homework at home, yet not turning it in when he gets to school. Bowing up at adults. Mostly me, but he has done it to Bob, and he talks to his dad like shit too. The difference there is that I do not let him get away with talking to me like I am an idiot. I don't spank him very often, but I just did today. With Keigan's belt that has metal eyelets. Do I feel bad? NO. Should I? Probably, but I have had enough. I am to the point of wanting to send him to off to some summer camp for troubled boys. Right about now I have come to the conclusion that 11 year old boys are assholes and they SUCK! Call me a bad parent, call me whatever you want, I do not care. His attitude is 10 times worse when he comes back from his dads house, and just as I get him acting a little better, it is time to go back over there again. Of course his dad doesn't want to get on to him when he does wrong because he only has them every other weekend during the school year, and every other week in the summer. He does get onto him sometimes, but not always when he needs it. If anybody has any ideas that may help, please, TELL ME! Is there an end in sight?
Friday, May 13, 2011
Friday the 13th....
Well, I thought I was going to get to sleep in, but...7:15 my phone is ringing. It was Scott calling to talk to the kids, as he does just about every morning. He forgot that they did not have school today due to the fact that we live in a hick town and they are out for FFA day. lol. Oh well. I did go back to sleep and slept until after 10! Yay me. I woke up and Bob cooked breakfast. Well, he started cooking and kept asking me how to do things until I just took over. Lol. Sometimes I think he does that on purpose, but I don't mind. He really cracks me up because he tries so hard sometimes to help me out with things, but of course, like any man, he does things "all wrong" according to the way we (the woman) do things. I absolutely love this man. I love the way he is standing right beside something and asks where is such and such. Just like a little while ago, he was going to "wash some socks" and had walked right past the basket of whites and asks me, "where are the socks?" and so I get up, go get the basket and I tell him to get out of the laundry room, and to go get the rest of his socks out of the bedroom. He tells me "there should not be many in there because I have been taking them off and putting them in the basket" and I just laughed, thinking, "really, because you did not even know where the basket was at." Then he was leaving to go clean my car and he was looking all over for his shoe, which was right at his feet where he had been sitting. LMAO. I am guilty of this kind of stuff too, but when it comes to me, I am usually looking for my phone or keys, and almost every time, they are in my hand. Countless times I have been looking for my phone for 30 minutes and been talking on the damn thing. lol.
Anyway, the kids are going to their dads house today, for the weekend. Dawson has a make up game tonight at 8 because they canceled all the games yesterday due to the "BIG STORM" that lasted all of 15 minutes. They also reset the date for Keigans closing ceremonies to Monday. She was NOT happy about that at all. So today is the make up game for Dawson, and there is a 40% chance of rain this evening, and then his last game is tomorrow. YAY! I am SOOOO EXCITED about this. I know that sounds horrible, but I don't think I need to go into the facts as to WHY I am so excited about it.
I still have not heard anything about tournament team that Keigan tried out for. Oh well. If she did not make it I will just have to find other ways to keep her working on her skills.
Well, I guess that is about all for the moment. I am going to get back to washing clothes and all that stuff, and Bob is off at the car wash cleaning my car.
Anyway, the kids are going to their dads house today, for the weekend. Dawson has a make up game tonight at 8 because they canceled all the games yesterday due to the "BIG STORM" that lasted all of 15 minutes. They also reset the date for Keigans closing ceremonies to Monday. She was NOT happy about that at all. So today is the make up game for Dawson, and there is a 40% chance of rain this evening, and then his last game is tomorrow. YAY! I am SOOOO EXCITED about this. I know that sounds horrible, but I don't think I need to go into the facts as to WHY I am so excited about it.
I still have not heard anything about tournament team that Keigan tried out for. Oh well. If she did not make it I will just have to find other ways to keep her working on her skills.
Well, I guess that is about all for the moment. I am going to get back to washing clothes and all that stuff, and Bob is off at the car wash cleaning my car.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
......nothing really
so, keigan went and tried out for a tournament softball team last night, and but of course we don't know anything yet. he coach was there and said she had a pretty good chance of making it, but we shall see. she really loves the game and wants to go far with it, but at the same time, she is only 7 and still acts like a baby at times. lol. she also gets nervous at games when it is her turn at bat. i guess that is most kids though. either way, she has improved so much just this past season, and i want her to play during the summer as well, so that she will continue to get better and there is no long down time for her between seasons. kinda like they say kids forget stuff over the summer, well, i want her to stay on top of softball, until she says she does not want to play anymore.
as for dawson and his baseball, well, he has 2 games left and i will be so happy when that is all over. i know that sounds horrible, but i am so sick of wasting the gas to take him to practice when they don't even do anything. bob took him yesterday and said the coach did not even show up until 6, and then left because he had to go open his store for someone or some shit. who knows. they have a game tomorrow and then the last one is saturday. i have no clue if they are doing a team party, but i would be surprised if they have one and tell us about it. lol.
keigan also has closing ceremonies tomorrow. they didn't come in 1st place, but they did come in second place! still something to be proud of, seeing that it doesn't really mean they get anything better than the other teams, just bragging rights. lol. everybody still gets the same trophy.
as for dawson and his baseball, well, he has 2 games left and i will be so happy when that is all over. i know that sounds horrible, but i am so sick of wasting the gas to take him to practice when they don't even do anything. bob took him yesterday and said the coach did not even show up until 6, and then left because he had to go open his store for someone or some shit. who knows. they have a game tomorrow and then the last one is saturday. i have no clue if they are doing a team party, but i would be surprised if they have one and tell us about it. lol.
keigan also has closing ceremonies tomorrow. they didn't come in 1st place, but they did come in second place! still something to be proud of, seeing that it doesn't really mean they get anything better than the other teams, just bragging rights. lol. everybody still gets the same trophy.
Monday, May 9, 2011
random lyrics from some of my favorite songs on my iPod
Every time our eyes meet, this feeling inside me, is almost more than I can take. Baby when you touch me, I can feel how much you love me, and it just blows me away. I've never been this close to anyone, or anything. I can hear your thoughts, I can see your dreams. I don't know how you do what you do, I'm so in love with you. It just keeps getting better. I want to spend the rest of my life, with you by my side. Forever and ever. Every little thing that you do, Baby, I'm amazed by you. (my ringtone for Bob)
Every time I see your bubbly face, I get the tingles in a silly place. It starts in my toes, makes me crinkle my nose.
What do I do with all I need to say? So much I want to tell you everyday. Ohh it breaks my heart, I cry these tears in the dark. I write these letters to you, but they get lost in the blue, cause there's no address in the stars.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most. Not where you live, what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes. There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know. So if you agree, have a drink with me, raise your glasses for a toast.
When I look in my future, you're all I can see, so honey, don't go lovin' on nobody but me.
Because I lost my job, my bills are gettin bigger. Cryin babe, 'bout to lose my mind. 100 dollar habit, aint got a penny, my woman ran off with a friend of mine. Can't keep a job, I'm too fucked up. DHS about to take my kids. Try to get well, keep gettin sicker. Sittin in the parking lot, my finger on the trigger.
I'll take my bottle and lime, and move a little further down the line, and think about how good life can be.
Do lovers really fall in love to stay?
Runnin gypsy wild. Runnin free. Gypsy wild, ain't no stoppin me. Gypsy wild, yeah I'm a rebel child. carryin on, and on, and on. I keep carryin. on.
I pray your breaks go out running down a hill. I pray a flower pot falls from a window seal and knocks you in the head like I's like to. I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls. I pray you're flyin high when your engine stalls. I pray all your dreams never come true. Wherever you are, Honey, I pray for you.
I'll walk, let go of my hand. Right now I'm hurt and you don't understand. So just be quiet, and later we will talk, just leave, don't worry, I'll walk.
I'm already there. Take a look around. I'm the sunshine in your hair. I'm the shadow on the ground. I'm the whisper in the wind, I'm your imaginary friend, and I know I'm in your prayers, oh, I'm already there.
If heaven wasn't so far away, I'd pack up the kids and go for the day.
I DO, cherish you. For the rest of my life, you don't have to think twice. I WILL, love you still, from the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control. I've waited so long to say this to you. If you're asking do I love you this much, I DO.
I need a cigarette now. Nothing but old regrets now. The drama runnin through my veins, the pressure's blowin up my brain. I swear to God, I'm going insane.
If you asked me I would smile, and we could sit and talk a while. But there's just to much to hide, and I've got nothing left inside. I'm just a little bit crazy.
Mama he's crazy. Crazy over me, and in my life is where he says he always wants to be. I've never been so loved. He beats all I've ever seen, and Mama, he's crazy, he's crazy over me.
Cheap perfume and cheaper whiskey. She winked at me when she said last call. When the parking lot was empty, we made love in a bathroom stall......with Jesus is love written on the wall. Resurrection.
I've got a lot of things to say. Got a lot of things to do today, but I throw 'em all behind, throw 'em to the side. Put 'em off til tomorrow, to keep you satisfied.
I remember your kiss like TNT, how it rattled every long gone part of me, and in the heat of the night you shook when you said my name. And the precious drop of sweat runnin down your back, like a South bound train burnin down the track. Two martyrs in a world that would never be the same...
Every time I see your bubbly face, I get the tingles in a silly place. It starts in my toes, makes me crinkle my nose.
What do I do with all I need to say? So much I want to tell you everyday. Ohh it breaks my heart, I cry these tears in the dark. I write these letters to you, but they get lost in the blue, cause there's no address in the stars.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most. Not where you live, what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes. There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know. So if you agree, have a drink with me, raise your glasses for a toast.
When I look in my future, you're all I can see, so honey, don't go lovin' on nobody but me.
Because I lost my job, my bills are gettin bigger. Cryin babe, 'bout to lose my mind. 100 dollar habit, aint got a penny, my woman ran off with a friend of mine. Can't keep a job, I'm too fucked up. DHS about to take my kids. Try to get well, keep gettin sicker. Sittin in the parking lot, my finger on the trigger.
I'll take my bottle and lime, and move a little further down the line, and think about how good life can be.
Do lovers really fall in love to stay?
Runnin gypsy wild. Runnin free. Gypsy wild, ain't no stoppin me. Gypsy wild, yeah I'm a rebel child. carryin on, and on, and on. I keep carryin. on.
I pray your breaks go out running down a hill. I pray a flower pot falls from a window seal and knocks you in the head like I's like to. I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls. I pray you're flyin high when your engine stalls. I pray all your dreams never come true. Wherever you are, Honey, I pray for you.
I'll walk, let go of my hand. Right now I'm hurt and you don't understand. So just be quiet, and later we will talk, just leave, don't worry, I'll walk.
I'm already there. Take a look around. I'm the sunshine in your hair. I'm the shadow on the ground. I'm the whisper in the wind, I'm your imaginary friend, and I know I'm in your prayers, oh, I'm already there.
If heaven wasn't so far away, I'd pack up the kids and go for the day.
I DO, cherish you. For the rest of my life, you don't have to think twice. I WILL, love you still, from the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control. I've waited so long to say this to you. If you're asking do I love you this much, I DO.
I need a cigarette now. Nothing but old regrets now. The drama runnin through my veins, the pressure's blowin up my brain. I swear to God, I'm going insane.
If you asked me I would smile, and we could sit and talk a while. But there's just to much to hide, and I've got nothing left inside. I'm just a little bit crazy.
Mama he's crazy. Crazy over me, and in my life is where he says he always wants to be. I've never been so loved. He beats all I've ever seen, and Mama, he's crazy, he's crazy over me.
Cheap perfume and cheaper whiskey. She winked at me when she said last call. When the parking lot was empty, we made love in a bathroom stall......with Jesus is love written on the wall. Resurrection.
I've got a lot of things to say. Got a lot of things to do today, but I throw 'em all behind, throw 'em to the side. Put 'em off til tomorrow, to keep you satisfied.
I remember your kiss like TNT, how it rattled every long gone part of me, and in the heat of the night you shook when you said my name. And the precious drop of sweat runnin down your back, like a South bound train burnin down the track. Two martyrs in a world that would never be the same...
Just more RaNdOm quotes
everyday that goes by, it seems like i discover something new about you. it is incredible to me how one person can and has made such a difference in my life.
i may not have the smallest waist, or the prettiest face, but i do have a big heart. if you don't like me the way i am, that is okay, because i know someone that does.
it is funny how even after all this time, i get butterflies when he grabs my hand.
you know you are a lucky girl when your best friend, secret keeper, memory makes, and everything else is your boyfriend. i am a lucky girl.
loved by the best, hated by the rest
some people need shiny cars, big houses and lots of money to be happy, but all i need is you and my kids.
men can multitask! they can scratch their balls, hog the remote, and talk shit all at the same time.
do you ever get the urge to cut peoples break lines, or is that just me?
you don't have bigger balls than me, mine are just in my chest
is facebook "poking" a form or cyber foreplay?
there are some people in this world that just give my middle finger a boner.
**breaking news** all kids with names starting with letters a-z have been recalled by all local hospitals because they forgot to install the mute and stop buttons.
roses are red, nuts are round, skirts are up, panties are down, belly to belly, skin to skin, when it is stiff, stick in.
dear obama. please remove your hands from my pockets, as i can stimulate myself. thank you.
what does a prostitute and bungee jumping have in common? the cost the same, last about as long, and if the rubber breaks, you are screwed.
someone should light the fuse on your tampon!
husband and wife are watching tv. husband says to wife, i can't decide between golf and porn. wife says to husband, watch porn, you already know how to golf.
when you become immobilized by what anybody else thinks of you, what you are saying is "your opinion of me is more important than my opinion of myself"
claiming to love someone does not mean shutting them out when the going gets tough...it means letting them in to lighten the load.
i may not have the smallest waist, or the prettiest face, but i do have a big heart. if you don't like me the way i am, that is okay, because i know someone that does.
it is funny how even after all this time, i get butterflies when he grabs my hand.
you know you are a lucky girl when your best friend, secret keeper, memory makes, and everything else is your boyfriend. i am a lucky girl.
loved by the best, hated by the rest
some people need shiny cars, big houses and lots of money to be happy, but all i need is you and my kids.
men can multitask! they can scratch their balls, hog the remote, and talk shit all at the same time.
do you ever get the urge to cut peoples break lines, or is that just me?
you don't have bigger balls than me, mine are just in my chest
is facebook "poking" a form or cyber foreplay?
there are some people in this world that just give my middle finger a boner.
**breaking news** all kids with names starting with letters a-z have been recalled by all local hospitals because they forgot to install the mute and stop buttons.
roses are red, nuts are round, skirts are up, panties are down, belly to belly, skin to skin, when it is stiff, stick in.
dear obama. please remove your hands from my pockets, as i can stimulate myself. thank you.
what does a prostitute and bungee jumping have in common? the cost the same, last about as long, and if the rubber breaks, you are screwed.
someone should light the fuse on your tampon!
husband and wife are watching tv. husband says to wife, i can't decide between golf and porn. wife says to husband, watch porn, you already know how to golf.
when you become immobilized by what anybody else thinks of you, what you are saying is "your opinion of me is more important than my opinion of myself"
claiming to love someone does not mean shutting them out when the going gets tough...it means letting them in to lighten the load.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
I am a mess!
I have shut the computer down 3 times now, and yet I just turned it back on. I am not real sure why, other than I guess just to blog.
I am sitting here with so many emotions going through my head, and watching Army Wives. I am bawling my eyes out, which I usually cry every time I watch this show, but tonight, I just can't help by wonder if it is show that is making me cry or if it is just everything else. Maybe a good mixture of both?
Today is Mothers Day, and I am missing my mom like crazy. I would give anything to hug her and tell her that I love her, as I never did that before. For as long as I can remember, I was never forthcoming with my feelings towards my mom until it was too late. I can't help but wonder sometimes if she really knew how much she meant to me. I wish she was her to give me advise on all this shit that is going on right now. Actually, I can almost hear her now. Oh how I can only imagine. I wish so badly that she could meet Bob, and actually see just how happy he makes me, and much I have changed since being with him. For the better of course. He is absolutely the best thing, aside from Dawson and Keigan, that has happened to me. I know that she would just love him!
With that being said, I must give thanks to Bobs parents for bring such a loving, kind hearted person into this world, and to all of those who had a hand in making him the man that he is today. Even through all of the bullshit, part of me still longs for some sort of acceptance, yet I just don't see it happening anytime. I have been hurt, and I know that I have said some hurtful things, but then at the same time, I know I am who I am, I am not a liar, and I say what I mean, and I mean what I say. I can admit when I am wrong. I am human. I don't have much, but I love with all that I am. I am NOT a materialistic person, and I never have been. I would never be with someone for their money, or be friends with someone just because they may be able to do something for me, or my kids. I try to let what people think and say about me, go in and out, but at the end of the day, I am human, and at some point I just can't help but to react. That old saying "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt"...BULLSHIT! A friend of mine told me the other day that she thought it was "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will break my heart" and I have never heard it put that way, but that is now what I am teaching my kids. They say time will mend a broken heart, but just as when a glass breaks and you glue it back together, there is always a crack, and in some places, a little chip missing. The heart never fully mends. Not in my opinion.
Well, real quick, on a lighter note, Keigan made me a bowl of cereal this morning for mothers day. It was so sweet. As soon as her eyes opened she told me Happy Mothers Day. Dawson did not tell me until this evening, and only AFTER I said something about him not saying anything.
It is 11:08 and I turning this thing off for the last time tonight.
Good Night.
I am sitting here with so many emotions going through my head, and watching Army Wives. I am bawling my eyes out, which I usually cry every time I watch this show, but tonight, I just can't help by wonder if it is show that is making me cry or if it is just everything else. Maybe a good mixture of both?
Today is Mothers Day, and I am missing my mom like crazy. I would give anything to hug her and tell her that I love her, as I never did that before. For as long as I can remember, I was never forthcoming with my feelings towards my mom until it was too late. I can't help but wonder sometimes if she really knew how much she meant to me. I wish she was her to give me advise on all this shit that is going on right now. Actually, I can almost hear her now. Oh how I can only imagine. I wish so badly that she could meet Bob, and actually see just how happy he makes me, and much I have changed since being with him. For the better of course. He is absolutely the best thing, aside from Dawson and Keigan, that has happened to me. I know that she would just love him!
With that being said, I must give thanks to Bobs parents for bring such a loving, kind hearted person into this world, and to all of those who had a hand in making him the man that he is today. Even through all of the bullshit, part of me still longs for some sort of acceptance, yet I just don't see it happening anytime. I have been hurt, and I know that I have said some hurtful things, but then at the same time, I know I am who I am, I am not a liar, and I say what I mean, and I mean what I say. I can admit when I am wrong. I am human. I don't have much, but I love with all that I am. I am NOT a materialistic person, and I never have been. I would never be with someone for their money, or be friends with someone just because they may be able to do something for me, or my kids. I try to let what people think and say about me, go in and out, but at the end of the day, I am human, and at some point I just can't help but to react. That old saying "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt"...BULLSHIT! A friend of mine told me the other day that she thought it was "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will break my heart" and I have never heard it put that way, but that is now what I am teaching my kids. They say time will mend a broken heart, but just as when a glass breaks and you glue it back together, there is always a crack, and in some places, a little chip missing. The heart never fully mends. Not in my opinion.
Well, real quick, on a lighter note, Keigan made me a bowl of cereal this morning for mothers day. It was so sweet. As soon as her eyes opened she told me Happy Mothers Day. Dawson did not tell me until this evening, and only AFTER I said something about him not saying anything.
It is 11:08 and I turning this thing off for the last time tonight.
Good Night.
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