Monday, April 30, 2012

Crazy little thing called LIFE

Ugh. Where do I even begin? This past week and weekend were CRAZY.
Bob was in the hospital for  3 days with gallbladder issues. They ended up doing a procedure where they put a camera down his throat and went down and checked everything out. Made a cut in the common bile duct so that no stones could escape and go into the pancreas. They wanted to go in the next day and take the gallbladder out, but Bob did not want to be put to sleep two days in a row, and I can't say that I blame him. I wouldn't want it either. So, now I am waiting for him to wake up so we can go to the doctor's office and get some paperwork for him to go have some blood work done and then set up a date for surgery.
Bob's being in hospital resulted in much family drama and I am yet again, a piece of shit, fat ugly whore who is only with him for his money etc. I will not get into it on here other than what I have just said. Just know that
#1. He doesn't have "money" so to speak. We live pay check to pay check just like most Americans.

I am Bob's wife, and we tell each other everything. Sometimes I don't even have to tell him when something is bothering me, he already knows, and in cases like that, he knows what the problem is that is bothering me. I will not try to explain or defend myself, as there is no need. The people in my life that matter already know the truth. However, I would be lying if I said I did not want to write a full, blown out "vent" post, but I will not go there. I can not dwell on others self pity, hate and jealousy. I have better things to do.

Now, on to better things....Both kids had ball games Friday night and they both did awesome! Keigan's team played awesome. The best they have played all year, and everybody was so excited. It was a very close game, but we didn't win. It is okay though. All of the girls seem to be good sports and they are all learning and having fun. I think it helps that they have a coach that is not hard on them and only wants them to have fun and learn the game.

Dawson's team played awesome too! Probably the best they have done all year as well, but they are first place in their league. Dawson was 4th at bat, and got a triple on the first pitch. (now that I think about it,I think Keigan was 4th at bat and she got a triple as well) I think it was his next at bat that he struck out, which was bogus call by the ump, but it doesn't matter. That is when the attitude kicked in. This child has horrible sportsmanship when comes to himself. Ugh, I just want to jerk him off the field at times like this.

I ended up having to leave and Keigan to her game so I did not get to finish watching, but I know they were able to win, and not let the other team get more than 1 run.

Anyway, I just noticed that it is almost 10 so I guess I am going to wake the hubs up and get going.

Friday, April 20, 2012

Obama...IS A FAKE!

You have seriously got to be kidding me?!?
I have said all along that this ignorant son of a bitch had NO business being the President of the United States of America. I do not normally follow politics, and to be honest, I still don't, for the most part. I have my reasonings, and typically I keep my opinion about all this kind of shit to myself for different reasons. I don't vote, and again, there are reasons.

1. My reasoning is this...simply put, IT IS NOT AMERICA'S VOTE that decides the fate of our country. I think that if AMERICANS want their vote to count, then they need to be calling in and texting for the contestants on American Idol! Period. The "electoral college" is the reason that I typically do not follow, keep up with, or vote, when it comes to political aspects. I have better things to do I guess.

I am sure that many people will disagree with my thought process on all of this, and that is fine too. We are all entitled to our own opinion. I am pretty sure that I have blogged about issues similar to these, almost 4 years ago when this fucktard was running for office. I will have to go back and see if I can find them on MySpace.
I said then, and I will say it now, I think Obama is the Anti-Christ!

Here is the article that I read today:

THIS IS WHAT THE LINK SAYS: A crushing situation is emerging for, not only Barack Obama, but also for the American people as a landmark statement has been made by the Obama administration that is going to turn the entire 2012 Presidential race and potentially much more on its head.

Lawyers representing the current sitting President of the United States of America have been forced, under penalty of perjury, to admit that the long-form birth certificate presented by the White House in April of 2011 is a total forgery.

In a NJ ballot access eligibility case spawned by Tea Party activists, attorneys representing Obama had to admit the document presented to the American people by Obama himself is actually knowingly faked and was used to fool the American public into believing a complete fabrication.

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What could be the most shocking aspect of the situation, however, may be the fact that Obama and his attorneys have crafted an argument that truly boggles the mind.

In a direct assault on everything the citizens of the USA take for granted, in layman’s terms, his attorneys literally made the argument during a hearing on April 10th that because the document was so obviously faked and could not possibly be considered proof of citizenship, the document itself should not be allowed as evidence in the case.

Obama is now basically asserting that only a legitimate document should be allowed as evidence in this case and therefore this one should be thrown out due to the fact that it’s not real. The Judge agreed.

In what may turn out to be one of the biggest scandals in the history of the United States, the Obama administration itself has now virtually admitted to High Crimes and Misdemeanors and to deceiving the public into believing a lie that was ironically intended to distract awareness from the actual issue that truly determines his eligibility, or lack thereof.

Even though now it has become evident that Obama cannot prove he was born in the Unites States after all, even before that admission in court, it was already known that he was not actually eligible to become either Vice President or President, due to the fact that Obama is not a “Natural Born” Citizen.

Although presenting the fake birth certificate to the American people was an attempt to falsely prove his automatic eligibility, even prior to the ‘President’s’ issuance of the fabricated document to the public last spring, attorneys arguing against his eligibility since 2007 proved that Obama was simply ineligible due to the fact that only one of his parents was a US citizen.

Ironically, arguments have been made against this age-old constitutional mandate with regard to Obama’s eligibility by using John McCain’s ’08 eligibility situation as an example, while missing the fact that even McCain’s parents were both born in the USA and therefore was ultimately allowed to run for office, even though he was born on a US military base in Panama.

This simply isn’t the case for Obama, aside from the fact that his administration has now admitted to open criminal activity and blatant ineligibility on multiple fronts.

Daily Pen Editor, Pen Johannson released a story Monday in a devastating editorial explaining the circumstances as one that is sure to set off a firestorm of controversy and could end up creating a gigantic constitutional and legislative nightmare of epic proportions in the weeks and months to come.

Brace yourself folks, it’s bound to get a little bumpy.




NOW, to all of those "supporters" that said "yes, he has every right to run" and he is a great man, I want to know, DO YOU STILL FEEL THAT WAY? If so, I think you probably need help as well. 
This man baldfaced lied about being an AMERICAN! He doesn't support, or stand behind what this country stands for, or anything else that is the AMERICAN WAY! He is a fucking outcast and needs to be impeached! 
I wish Hilary Clinton would run! I would vote for her!!!! At least when we had a Clinton in office, we as a country, was out of debt, gas was not 4 dollars a gallon, and the economy was just a better place. 

As for now, I am done with my rant, but I am sure this will not be the last I post on this matter. 

Fuckin Perfect.....Love this song

Made a wrong turn, Once or twice
Dug my way out, Blood and fire
Bad decisions, That's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way, it's all good", It didn't slow me down
Mistaken, Always second guessing
Under estimated, Look, I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than Fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me.

You're so mean,
When you talk, About yourself, You are wrong.
Change the voices, In your head
Make them like you Instead.

So complicated,
Look happy, You'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game.
It's enough, I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/pink-perfect-lyrics.html ]

The whole world stares so I swallow the fear,
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line and we try, try, try,
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
We change ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that? Why do I do that?
(Why do I do that?)

Sunday, April 15, 2012

A few of my favorite things, and not so favorite things


First of all, why in the hell does it have to wait until 10:30 at night to start storming? I am beyond terrified of bad weather, and so is my daughter. She just came in here crying and asked me if she could sleep with me, but since I will either be sleeping at the dinning room table or in a zero gravity lawn chair because of my back, I had to tell her that she could sleep on the couch. So, that is one of my not so favorite things....bad weather.....
Some of my favorite things...







  • The smell of Downy Unstoppable scent boost, with the blue label. It smells so dang good!
  • Music. I believe songs are our thoughts that we can't put into words our self, that someone else has done for us. 
  • Watching my kids do things for the first time. I can not imagine my life without them. 
  • My iPhone. I <3 it! 
  • Army Wives
  • Grey's Anatomy
  • Private Practice
  • Softball, though I never played, I have come to love watching it.
  • Road trips...alone or with someone, it doesn't matter. 
  • Truck stops! No clue why, but I love them. You can find some neat stuff in those places. 
  • Pictures. I use to love having my picture taken, but that has changed over the last couple of years due to my weight, but I love looking at pictures, even of people that I don't know. I also love old pictures, from way back in the day. 
  • Clip Art.
  • PINK
  • Malibu Rum
  • Hanging out with friends
  • Dancing...which I don't get to do anymore. Best dance partner in the world, Sam Bass and Jerry Taylor
  • Camping
  • Baking
  • Blogging
  • Reading
  • Floating the Guadalupe and Frio Rivers
  • Tattoos. I have them and want more of them.


Some of my not so favorite things...

  • Drama. We all have it, but that doesn't mean that we like it. 
  • Politics
  • People who think they know it all
  • Sponge Bob Square Pants. Can't stand that creepy little bastard. 
  • The fact that I am not crafty.
  • The fact that I am addicted to fountain Dr. Pepper, and I do not eat enough, therefore, I don't lose the weight that I want too, but rather gain it because I can not function with out my addiction. 
  • I am probably the most insecure person you will ever know. 
  • Cars. I am not a car kinda girl. 
  • The saying "the good die young" because it seems to be true. 
  • Lizard Lick Towing. It's got to be one of the stupidest shows that I have seen, along with Storage Wars and all the other spinoff shows of the sort. 
  • Two faced people.
  • People who think they are owed something, for nothing.
  • The fact that I feel like I deserve less than I have.
  •  The fact that I did not finish high school, yet I have been to college and finished and want to go back. 
  • That my kids are not as close to their cousins as I was when I was growing up, and that they don't get to experience family gatherings like I did as a child. 

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Friday the 13th...

Okay, so I don't typically believe in the Friday the 13th superstitions, but yesterday as I was getting ready to go to the Relay For Life, that I have been looking forward to for more than a month, I came to dread it. Not because I didn't want to go,  but because of my back.
After I had gotten out of the shower and dried off, I bent over to put a towel on my wet head and I was unable to stand back up. Instead, I fell on my head (thankfully I had a little cushion from the towel) and there I laid, in the floor, unable to move without excruciating pain for about 20 minutes. There was nobody home to help me get up, get to a phone, or go get Keigan from school, so what choice did I have other than to try to pretend that everything was fine, and just keep on keepin on? After I made it to my phone I did text the hubs and let him know what had happen, but as I expected, he did not have his phone on him or something, because he was out at the race track helping set things up for RFL.
I managed to get dressed and get down the stairs and into my car, and all the while pretending that the pain was not really there, I went and picked up Keigan and then came back to the house and just sat here, hoping it really would just go away and I would be fine.
Once Bob and Dawson got home we went to the RFL. I have never been to anything like this, and I don't think this will be my last one. Despite the horrible pain I was in, I tried not to complain too much, and I had a great time. It was an emotional experience, but in a good way. I bought a bag that has a candle in that you light in honor of, or in memory of. We did ours in memory of my mom of course, and Keigan lit the candle. She was so proud, and it really is amazing what an 8 year old can actually understand when it comes to some things. Like a song, or poem, things you just don't expect a little child to understand.


 ^This is before the first lap started. There was a lady singing "I'm gonna love you through it" and Keigan was bawling her little eyes out.



 Getting ready to walk the SURVIVORS lap with Ra-Ra











 These are the shirts that survivors were wearing. I wish I could have gotten a picture of  all the survivors. It really does give you hope. Seeing so many people who have been given such horrible news, and beaten all the odds. Some that were just beginning their fight....




I miss my mom more and more every single day. There honestly has not been a day that has gone by since June 6, 2008 that I have not thought about her and cried. It is still very hard for me to come to terms with her death. I do not understand it. I am so happy that she is not suffering anymore, but for my own selfish reasons, I guess, I want her back here with me, and my kids. I want her to meet Bob and get to know him, just as I want him to know her. I want her to see that I have done the best that I could with my kids, and in life.

Before I close this, I want to ask that anybody that reads this, please, take a moment and say a prayer, and donate when you can to the American Cancer Society. Help raise awareness and help find a cure.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

THE DASH by Linda Ellis

I seen a link on Facebook for a website, (I forget the site now) and I think this is something to live by. I DID NOT WRITE THIS. It was written by Linda Ellis.

The DASH
I read of a man who stood to speak at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone from beginning...to the end.

He noted the first came the date of her birth,
then spoke of the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
was  the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive on Earth
and now only those that love her
know what what that little line is worth.

For it matters not how much we own.
The cars...the house...the cash...
What matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our dash

So think about this long and hard;
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real
and always try to understand
the way people feel.

And be less quick to anger
and show appreciation  more
and love the people in our lives
like we never loved before

If we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile...
Remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while

So when your eulogy is read
with your life's actions to rehash
would you be proud of the things they say
about how you spent your dash?

Random Quotes...I love these things.

Promises mean everything, but after they are broken, sorry means nothing.

LIVE for TODAY
LOVE for TOMORROW, and
LAUGH at all your YESTERDAYS.
NEVER regret the PAST.
ALWAYS HOPE for the FUTURE, and
CHERISH every moment you have.

The most memorable people in your life will be the ones who loved you even when you weren't very lovable.

It's hard to be fit as a fiddle when you are shaped like a cello

Family isn't always blood. It's the people in your life who want you in theirs; the ones who accept you for who you are, who would do anything to see you smile, and who love you, no matter what.

When you want something you've never had, you have to do something that you've never done.

You have to take the good with the bad, smile when you're sad, love what you've got and remember what you had...Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from your mistakes, but never regret. People change, things go wrong, just remember, life goes on.

Keep your eyes on the sunshine and you will never notice the shadow

Be alive, authentic, creative, hopeful, kind, loving and passionate

Accept your past without regrets.
Handle your present with confidence.
Face your future without fear.

Yeah, I have made mistakes, just as you have, but life does not come with instructions

No matter how strong a girl is, she always has a breaking point.

Trying to explain how much I miss you is like trying to count the stars in the sky...IMPOSSIBLE

I have a quick brain, attached to a smart mouth.

The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others on how you demand to be treated. Don't settle for anything other than respect.

Spend time with those you love. One of these days you will either say " I wish I has" or "I'm glad I did"

People don't always need advice. Sometimes all they really need is a hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, and a heart to understand.




Monday, April 9, 2012

Long weekend coming to an end

Whew, I thought this long weekend would never come to an end. It has been a great weekend, but I'm ready for everything to go back to normal...as normal as it gets around here anyway.
My brain is going 100 miles per hour with things that I was going to write about, but now...I am drawing a blank. Ugh. I hate that. Maybe that is my minds way of telling to get off the computer and do some stuff around this house, which has been neglected all weekend, but what fun is that? I have started on some things, well, 1...LAUNDRY, and I am sure the only reason I have started on that is because both kids have ball games tonight and Keigan's uniform shirt needed to be washed, so that, along with some of their school clothes is in the washer now, which I think just finished. I will put them in the dryer soon, but what I really need to do it clean the kitchen and dining room, but I really do not feel like cleaning around Dawson while he working on his project for school. I have a feeling he is going to make a bigger mess so there is no need to clean yet.
Speaking of this project, I am not really sure what the hell he is suppose to be doing, other than making a continent and then dividing it into 7 and doing some sort of land forms or something, be has a leaf or 2 from the tree outside, some grass, and some ground cloves....that is going to be his desert? Should be very interesting. I know my house smells like ground cloves, which smell like crap! I will try to take a picture of it when he is finished and post it.
OMG, I swear my son is not the brightest color in the box. He just put AX Body Spray in his nose because "the deserts stink."
Anyway, I guess I will get off of here and do something productive....maybe.
1:15 pm

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Easter....since when is it like Christmas?

Ugh, so it is yet another holiday weekend, and we have a lot going on.
Thursday, Dawson had a baseball game, and they played a really good game, and seen some horrible sportsman ship from the other team. I hope they learned from it, because some of the boys on Dawson's team exhibit some of the same traits, Dawson included! I missed the first game of the season because I was out of town for a wedding, but they did win that game and then they got on a bad streak. Don't really know what the deal was, but the last couple of games they have really stepped up their game and started doing a lot better. Dawson plays 3rd base, most of the time, but he has pitched in a couple of games as well. (I think he needs to stick to 3rd base until he can get some pitching lessons...from a pro) but he does pretty good for a short while. Then he gets freaked out and it is all down hill from there. Anyway, Thursday's game, he got a couple of good hits, got hit by the pitcher once, and stole 2nd, and even scored. He made some good plays, had a run down with the catcher trying to keep a kid from scoring, and he got the last out of the game. It was great.
Friday, (today) Keigan had softball practice. She is really getting a lot better and really loves the game. She has her moments, but all in all, she LOVES it. She wishes more people would come see her game, but she'll be alright. lol.
Anyway, now to my point of this posting tonight....We just went to Wal-mart to get the kiddos a couple of things for Easter and you would have thought it was freaking Christmas in that crazy store. Some people really go off the deep end with this stuff. Seeing as we are trying to limit the kids sugar intake, we did not buy a whole mess of candy. Yes, we did get them some candy, but we also figured they would be getting candy from other places as well, so...instead, we bought each of them a little basket to put their little bit of candy in, and got each of them something that they have been asking for. Dawson will get a new headset for the X-BOX (because he is a game dork) and Keigan will get a new case for her iPod. She has been asking for an OtterBox for it since she got it, but HELLO, I am not spending that much money on a silly little Easter gift. She will love the one that we got her, and maybe one day she will get the OtterBox. HaHaHa.
I did see a lot of people buying insane amounts of things for their kids, and I could not help but think to myself, "these people are idiots" and I know maybe that is wrong, but I can't help it. Of course my kids are just as spoiled a many others in this world, but really? For Easter? It seems like all holidays are about anymore is MONEY. Maybe it is just me, but.... Hell, the only holiday I really like Halloween. Lol. If I wasn't so disgusted with myself, I would still get me a cute costume and go trick-or-treating my damn self.

Oh well, I really need to get off of here. It is 12:20 in the morning and I have to get up early. I have a ton of stuff to do in the morning. Bob is already sound asleep on the couch and frankly, I over his snoring for now. Lol.
Good Night,
ME

Thursday, April 5, 2012

No clue what the hell I am doing anymore....

So I was going to start a new blog, because either I am apparently too dumb to figure out how to change the name of this one, or you just simply can't change the name. Anyway, so I did start the new blog. Posted a link  to it, and now I have decided I like this one, mostly because it is already all the colors that I want and all that good stuff. So, if you are keeping up, keep up with this one. I can not make any promises, but I am going to try to keep up with blogging more. I miss it. Back when MySpace was cool, I blogged all the time.....I guess we shall see what happens.

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