i am finally starting to fell better after what has seemed like an eternity of having a cold. yesterday was the first day that i made it all day with no fever. i am still coughing, and have the nasty nose, but i feel better and that is all i care.
i am glad the weekend is over. the kids were at their dads for the weekend, and bob did not work all weekend, so that allowed me the chance to sleep in...not that i did really, but still. i could go back to sleep if i wanted to, and it was nice knowing that. we really didn't too much this long weekend, but that was ok too. bob did ask me to go on a date, and i went, even though i was still really sick, and then it ended up not being much of date because we had a tag-a-long. we went and seen the hangover 2 and it really sucked. i did not like it. we also spent one day with family and went to sams club to get some stuff that dawson had to have for the last day of school, and then yesterday we grilled steaks and people were here at the house. it was nice.
the kids also came home yesterday, and they had a good weekend. they went to a crawfish boil saturday and went swimming, then they went to the boardwalk, and then out on the boat. when they came home everything was fine. no sunburns or anything. after a while, keigan started having a wild fit saying her back itched, and it felt like she had fire ants in her skin on her back. long story short, she wanted to go to the er, so i took her, and her dad met us there. it was a 6-8 hour wait and we were able to make her believe that she would be fine and we would get some lotion that would make her feel better, and we left the er, unseen, and headed to cvs. got her some lotion and went about out business. the only reason she acted a fool was because there was a house full of people. once she was in the car, she was fine, and she did not say anything else about her back until her dad showed up at the er, then it was back to acting like a fool. she is all better now, and at school.
well, that is all i have for the moment....
1:28pm
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
still not feeling so well
i am still not feeling so well. now the horrible cough has set in, and it sucks. its deep in my chest and it hurts like hell. i did manage to go to the store and get me some vicks vapor cough medicine, and i will be using it tonight, and it should work. it did last time anyway. i looked for some nasal tampons (rhino rockets) but of course walmart does not carry them. damnit. lol. i am sure i would look real cute walking around with one shoved in each side of my nose. hmm. i bet i could make it on peopleofwalmart.com if i had them shoved in there and was walking around the store? oh well. i just hope i kick this crap by the end of the weekend, and then i guess the next time we go on a mini vacation i will just have to stay there so i don't get sick when we come back. yeah, sounds good to me. haha.
yesterday was keigan's awards thing at school and she got an outstanding achievement and star student award. i was proud of her. even more proud because the teacher that awarded it to her, is the teacher that she thinks hates her. lol. why she thinks that is beyond me. i mean, i am sure it has nothing to do with the fact that damn near every conduct mark that she has gotten has been from that teacher. lol. it's so funny when she gets a mark too, because of course she was never doing whatever it was that she got the mark for. (usually talking)
also yesterday, dawson got to drive golf carts at school. i think it is for the students who pass the taks or something, and last year they were given some t-shirts and drove golf carts. this year, i don't know how they still managed to drive the carts because they told the students they could not get shirts this year because it is against the law to reward them for passing the taks?!?! what kind of shit is that? dawson made 100's on all portions of the test and i think that all the kids that passed should be rewarded. that's just me.
well, i guess i am done. i don't feel good and i am going to bed.
1:09pm
yesterday was keigan's awards thing at school and she got an outstanding achievement and star student award. i was proud of her. even more proud because the teacher that awarded it to her, is the teacher that she thinks hates her. lol. why she thinks that is beyond me. i mean, i am sure it has nothing to do with the fact that damn near every conduct mark that she has gotten has been from that teacher. lol. it's so funny when she gets a mark too, because of course she was never doing whatever it was that she got the mark for. (usually talking)
also yesterday, dawson got to drive golf carts at school. i think it is for the students who pass the taks or something, and last year they were given some t-shirts and drove golf carts. this year, i don't know how they still managed to drive the carts because they told the students they could not get shirts this year because it is against the law to reward them for passing the taks?!?! what kind of shit is that? dawson made 100's on all portions of the test and i think that all the kids that passed should be rewarded. that's just me.
well, i guess i am done. i don't feel good and i am going to bed.
1:09pm
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Summer colds, and more....
So yesterday I woke up with a horrible cold. Runny nose, itchy eyes, sneezing, the whole nine yards. Well, I would almost rather have the flu than a cold, and I would damn sure rather puke than sneeze. I am not sure why, but that is a true story. I need to find some rhino rockets (nasal tampons) to stick up my nose to keep snot from just randomly running. Then on top of all that, I have the most horrible cramps, which I never had until I had kids. Wonder why that is?
Keigan is suppose to be getting an award today at school. I can't help but wonder what she is getting an award for. She was not on the honor roll, she did not have perfect attendance. I keep thinking it must be the motor mouth award? I dunno, but I will find out at 2:30. Final grades are in, so I wish they would just let the kids out of school already. I am ready to not have to get up and get them ready for school. Well, I guess it doesn't matter because it's a snowballs chance in hell that Bob is going hear the alarm to get up in the morning. lol. Oh well, it's ok because I actually enjoy getting up, and making his coffee and lunch and seeing him off in the mornings when he has to get up.
I had other random stuff to write about, but now my mind is blank, so....
10:36am
Keigan is suppose to be getting an award today at school. I can't help but wonder what she is getting an award for. She was not on the honor roll, she did not have perfect attendance. I keep thinking it must be the motor mouth award? I dunno, but I will find out at 2:30. Final grades are in, so I wish they would just let the kids out of school already. I am ready to not have to get up and get them ready for school. Well, I guess it doesn't matter because it's a snowballs chance in hell that Bob is going hear the alarm to get up in the morning. lol. Oh well, it's ok because I actually enjoy getting up, and making his coffee and lunch and seeing him off in the mornings when he has to get up.
I had other random stuff to write about, but now my mind is blank, so....
10:36am
Monday, May 23, 2011
Our First Family Camping Trip of 2011
Me, Bob, the kids, Ra-Ra and Patti, left Thursday, the 19th, to go to Concan, Texas! I had never been there before, but I knew it was right by Garner State Park, and I have wanted to go there for many years and float the Frio River, so I was excited.
We stayed in a cabin at a place called Frio Country and it was so beautiful. Anyway, I will recall the weekend the best that I can...
Thursday-We got on the road headed out west about 12 I guess. We stopped in Luling, Texas at BUC-EES, which is my favorite store. If you have never been to a BUC-EES, then you would not understand. If you have been to one, then you probably have the fever, yet when you think about it, you aren't sure as to WHY IN THE HELL you like the store so much, as it really isn't anything more than a convenient store...that has tons of stuff, and this particular one has 49 toilets. LOL. Anyway, we kill about 45 minutes in the store and hit the road again, and not stopping again until we get to Uvalde. That is where we stopped at Wal-mart to get some groceries.
We get to the place we are going at around 7pm I guess. I was excited! Not only to be there, but also knowing there was a tv in the cabin and I was going to be able to watch the season finale of my favorite show, Grey's Anatomy....WRONG! The tv didn't work, I didn't have service on my phone to be able to try to watch it on youtube or something, but all was still good. It was actually really nice being somewhere away from here, and facebook, and texting, and so on. (however, I am glad to be back to my electronic life) We got everything unpacked and the kids could not wait to get to the water.
The Cabin
The Frio was a little on the low side, but we just spent 6+ hours to get here, so we were going to have a blast anyway. We did find more water than this, but this was the first picture I took as I was walking down to the water with everybody.
going into the swimming hole
Dawson, Bob, and Keigan
My water baby. Well, One of them.
Keigan cooking sausage
Friday, May 20th- Keigan and I were the first 2 people up, and she wanted to cook breakfast for everybody, so I let her. She made breakfast tacos and did not need very much help! (I think she has watched me do it a few times. haha) She also made coffee before waking everybody up. She is such a sweet little girl and sometimes I wish she would stay this age. Lord knows I am not ready for her to develop an attitude like her brother! LOL.
Later, after everybody ate and got motivated, we went and got our tubes and headed out in search of somewhere to float the day away. The people at the store that we went to to get the tubes and air them up told us of a good spot, but they were telling us that we were going to have to float the river backwards. Hmm. I was understanding what they were saying, but everybody else to seemed to be kind of lost as to what the hell the lady was telling us. Oh well, we headed off to the first crossing, just as we were told, and we put our tubes in the water on the north side of the crossing, and headed UP river. The water was not flowing fast at all, and we enjoyed our swim up the river. The kids were having the time of their life, playing in the cold, crystal clear water. They had goggles and they were catching little fish with a hand held net that Ra-Ra had brought. Once we reached a point that we would have had to have taken the tubes, raft, cooler and everything else, out of the water and walk a good bit, we just stopped and played a while before starting our journey back down river.
The end of the journey UP river
After being in the water for more than 5 hours we went back to the cabin to eat. Eating is always better in the woods, and I have never understood that, but I just love it! We were just about finished eating when a hummingbird decided to join us...by way of landing on Keigan's arm and trying to get "nectar" out of the polka dots on her swim shirt. It was funny, but crazy at the same time. I have NEVER seen a hummingbird get so close to people, or even land on something long enough to stop flapping their wings, but this one did. More than just once or twice. This silly bird was with us for the rest of the day pretty much. After eating, of course the kids wanted to go back in the water, so we headed down to the first swimming hole from day 1. I stayed down there for a while, and then headed back to take a shower, leaving the kids with Bob and Ra-Ra. On my way back, the bird landed on me, and not knowing what it was, I flung it off, only for it to return just a second later. It landed on me again and I took about 15 steps and it flew away, but didn't go far. It followed me all the way back to the camp, and would fly around every so often until we all went inside and went to bed. We never seen the bird again for the rest of the trip!
Saturday, May 21st- Today we headed over to Garner State Park. I have always wanted to go here, and I am so glad that we went. We went to ROCK BEACH and it was awesome! The water was colder, but felt so good. It was deeper and just as clear as the water we had been in the days before. There a lot of people there, but everyone was so friendly, and the kids of course had a blast just being in the water. Today was pretty much "Dawson's day" because he spent the day climbing rocks and cliffs and jumping the river, and swinging off of rope swings. There was a teenage couple that was helping all the younger kids climb safely to where they needed to be so they could jump, and I wish I would have told them how thankful I was for them, and how great it was to see them being so helpful. The girl helped Dawson so much, and she never took her eye off of him while he was trying to climb the side of the cliffs. Though he is still sore from such a workout, I think he had the time of his life.
Sunday, May 22nd- Today was the end of our mini vacation. We packed up, loaded up, and headed out. A 5 hour ride turned in to 10 and half hours because we got sidetracked and went to San Marcos and went to the outlet malls. We will be going back there!!!!
We stayed in a cabin at a place called Frio Country and it was so beautiful. Anyway, I will recall the weekend the best that I can...
Thursday-We got on the road headed out west about 12 I guess. We stopped in Luling, Texas at BUC-EES, which is my favorite store. If you have never been to a BUC-EES, then you would not understand. If you have been to one, then you probably have the fever, yet when you think about it, you aren't sure as to WHY IN THE HELL you like the store so much, as it really isn't anything more than a convenient store...that has tons of stuff, and this particular one has 49 toilets. LOL. Anyway, we kill about 45 minutes in the store and hit the road again, and not stopping again until we get to Uvalde. That is where we stopped at Wal-mart to get some groceries.
We get to the place we are going at around 7pm I guess. I was excited! Not only to be there, but also knowing there was a tv in the cabin and I was going to be able to watch the season finale of my favorite show, Grey's Anatomy....WRONG! The tv didn't work, I didn't have service on my phone to be able to try to watch it on youtube or something, but all was still good. It was actually really nice being somewhere away from here, and facebook, and texting, and so on. (however, I am glad to be back to my electronic life) We got everything unpacked and the kids could not wait to get to the water.
Later, after everybody ate and got motivated, we went and got our tubes and headed out in search of somewhere to float the day away. The people at the store that we went to to get the tubes and air them up told us of a good spot, but they were telling us that we were going to have to float the river backwards. Hmm. I was understanding what they were saying, but everybody else to seemed to be kind of lost as to what the hell the lady was telling us. Oh well, we headed off to the first crossing, just as we were told, and we put our tubes in the water on the north side of the crossing, and headed UP river. The water was not flowing fast at all, and we enjoyed our swim up the river. The kids were having the time of their life, playing in the cold, crystal clear water. They had goggles and they were catching little fish with a hand held net that Ra-Ra had brought. Once we reached a point that we would have had to have taken the tubes, raft, cooler and everything else, out of the water and walk a good bit, we just stopped and played a while before starting our journey back down river.
After being in the water for more than 5 hours we went back to the cabin to eat. Eating is always better in the woods, and I have never understood that, but I just love it! We were just about finished eating when a hummingbird decided to join us...by way of landing on Keigan's arm and trying to get "nectar" out of the polka dots on her swim shirt. It was funny, but crazy at the same time. I have NEVER seen a hummingbird get so close to people, or even land on something long enough to stop flapping their wings, but this one did. More than just once or twice. This silly bird was with us for the rest of the day pretty much. After eating, of course the kids wanted to go back in the water, so we headed down to the first swimming hole from day 1. I stayed down there for a while, and then headed back to take a shower, leaving the kids with Bob and Ra-Ra. On my way back, the bird landed on me, and not knowing what it was, I flung it off, only for it to return just a second later. It landed on me again and I took about 15 steps and it flew away, but didn't go far. It followed me all the way back to the camp, and would fly around every so often until we all went inside and went to bed. We never seen the bird again for the rest of the trip!
Saturday, May 21st- Today we headed over to Garner State Park. I have always wanted to go here, and I am so glad that we went. We went to ROCK BEACH and it was awesome! The water was colder, but felt so good. It was deeper and just as clear as the water we had been in the days before. There a lot of people there, but everyone was so friendly, and the kids of course had a blast just being in the water. Today was pretty much "Dawson's day" because he spent the day climbing rocks and cliffs and jumping the river, and swinging off of rope swings. There was a teenage couple that was helping all the younger kids climb safely to where they needed to be so they could jump, and I wish I would have told them how thankful I was for them, and how great it was to see them being so helpful. The girl helped Dawson so much, and she never took her eye off of him while he was trying to climb the side of the cliffs. Though he is still sore from such a workout, I think he had the time of his life.
Sunday, May 22nd- Today was the end of our mini vacation. We packed up, loaded up, and headed out. A 5 hour ride turned in to 10 and half hours because we got sidetracked and went to San Marcos and went to the outlet malls. We will be going back there!!!!
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
11 year old boys....make me want to shoot myself!
I am not sure what the hell the problem is, but I have had ENOUGH! It's like Dawson woke up on October 13, 2010, his voice sounded a little different, and his attitude really went to shit! The attitude was already going to shit before his birthday, but it's like over night, maybe he got a peach fuzz down south and decided he was a man or something. He went from an all the time all A student to bringing home 50 somethings on progress reports. Acting out at school, getting conduct marks DAILY, doing his homework at home, yet not turning it in when he gets to school. Bowing up at adults. Mostly me, but he has done it to Bob, and he talks to his dad like shit too. The difference there is that I do not let him get away with talking to me like I am an idiot. I don't spank him very often, but I just did today. With Keigan's belt that has metal eyelets. Do I feel bad? NO. Should I? Probably, but I have had enough. I am to the point of wanting to send him to off to some summer camp for troubled boys. Right about now I have come to the conclusion that 11 year old boys are assholes and they SUCK! Call me a bad parent, call me whatever you want, I do not care. His attitude is 10 times worse when he comes back from his dads house, and just as I get him acting a little better, it is time to go back over there again. Of course his dad doesn't want to get on to him when he does wrong because he only has them every other weekend during the school year, and every other week in the summer. He does get onto him sometimes, but not always when he needs it. If anybody has any ideas that may help, please, TELL ME! Is there an end in sight?
Friday, May 13, 2011
Friday the 13th....
Well, I thought I was going to get to sleep in, but...7:15 my phone is ringing. It was Scott calling to talk to the kids, as he does just about every morning. He forgot that they did not have school today due to the fact that we live in a hick town and they are out for FFA day. lol. Oh well. I did go back to sleep and slept until after 10! Yay me. I woke up and Bob cooked breakfast. Well, he started cooking and kept asking me how to do things until I just took over. Lol. Sometimes I think he does that on purpose, but I don't mind. He really cracks me up because he tries so hard sometimes to help me out with things, but of course, like any man, he does things "all wrong" according to the way we (the woman) do things. I absolutely love this man. I love the way he is standing right beside something and asks where is such and such. Just like a little while ago, he was going to "wash some socks" and had walked right past the basket of whites and asks me, "where are the socks?" and so I get up, go get the basket and I tell him to get out of the laundry room, and to go get the rest of his socks out of the bedroom. He tells me "there should not be many in there because I have been taking them off and putting them in the basket" and I just laughed, thinking, "really, because you did not even know where the basket was at." Then he was leaving to go clean my car and he was looking all over for his shoe, which was right at his feet where he had been sitting. LMAO. I am guilty of this kind of stuff too, but when it comes to me, I am usually looking for my phone or keys, and almost every time, they are in my hand. Countless times I have been looking for my phone for 30 minutes and been talking on the damn thing. lol.
Anyway, the kids are going to their dads house today, for the weekend. Dawson has a make up game tonight at 8 because they canceled all the games yesterday due to the "BIG STORM" that lasted all of 15 minutes. They also reset the date for Keigans closing ceremonies to Monday. She was NOT happy about that at all. So today is the make up game for Dawson, and there is a 40% chance of rain this evening, and then his last game is tomorrow. YAY! I am SOOOO EXCITED about this. I know that sounds horrible, but I don't think I need to go into the facts as to WHY I am so excited about it.
I still have not heard anything about tournament team that Keigan tried out for. Oh well. If she did not make it I will just have to find other ways to keep her working on her skills.
Well, I guess that is about all for the moment. I am going to get back to washing clothes and all that stuff, and Bob is off at the car wash cleaning my car.
Anyway, the kids are going to their dads house today, for the weekend. Dawson has a make up game tonight at 8 because they canceled all the games yesterday due to the "BIG STORM" that lasted all of 15 minutes. They also reset the date for Keigans closing ceremonies to Monday. She was NOT happy about that at all. So today is the make up game for Dawson, and there is a 40% chance of rain this evening, and then his last game is tomorrow. YAY! I am SOOOO EXCITED about this. I know that sounds horrible, but I don't think I need to go into the facts as to WHY I am so excited about it.
I still have not heard anything about tournament team that Keigan tried out for. Oh well. If she did not make it I will just have to find other ways to keep her working on her skills.
Well, I guess that is about all for the moment. I am going to get back to washing clothes and all that stuff, and Bob is off at the car wash cleaning my car.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
......nothing really
so, keigan went and tried out for a tournament softball team last night, and but of course we don't know anything yet. he coach was there and said she had a pretty good chance of making it, but we shall see. she really loves the game and wants to go far with it, but at the same time, she is only 7 and still acts like a baby at times. lol. she also gets nervous at games when it is her turn at bat. i guess that is most kids though. either way, she has improved so much just this past season, and i want her to play during the summer as well, so that she will continue to get better and there is no long down time for her between seasons. kinda like they say kids forget stuff over the summer, well, i want her to stay on top of softball, until she says she does not want to play anymore.
as for dawson and his baseball, well, he has 2 games left and i will be so happy when that is all over. i know that sounds horrible, but i am so sick of wasting the gas to take him to practice when they don't even do anything. bob took him yesterday and said the coach did not even show up until 6, and then left because he had to go open his store for someone or some shit. who knows. they have a game tomorrow and then the last one is saturday. i have no clue if they are doing a team party, but i would be surprised if they have one and tell us about it. lol.
keigan also has closing ceremonies tomorrow. they didn't come in 1st place, but they did come in second place! still something to be proud of, seeing that it doesn't really mean they get anything better than the other teams, just bragging rights. lol. everybody still gets the same trophy.
as for dawson and his baseball, well, he has 2 games left and i will be so happy when that is all over. i know that sounds horrible, but i am so sick of wasting the gas to take him to practice when they don't even do anything. bob took him yesterday and said the coach did not even show up until 6, and then left because he had to go open his store for someone or some shit. who knows. they have a game tomorrow and then the last one is saturday. i have no clue if they are doing a team party, but i would be surprised if they have one and tell us about it. lol.
keigan also has closing ceremonies tomorrow. they didn't come in 1st place, but they did come in second place! still something to be proud of, seeing that it doesn't really mean they get anything better than the other teams, just bragging rights. lol. everybody still gets the same trophy.
Monday, May 9, 2011
random lyrics from some of my favorite songs on my iPod
Every time our eyes meet, this feeling inside me, is almost more than I can take. Baby when you touch me, I can feel how much you love me, and it just blows me away. I've never been this close to anyone, or anything. I can hear your thoughts, I can see your dreams. I don't know how you do what you do, I'm so in love with you. It just keeps getting better. I want to spend the rest of my life, with you by my side. Forever and ever. Every little thing that you do, Baby, I'm amazed by you. (my ringtone for Bob)
Every time I see your bubbly face, I get the tingles in a silly place. It starts in my toes, makes me crinkle my nose.
What do I do with all I need to say? So much I want to tell you everyday. Ohh it breaks my heart, I cry these tears in the dark. I write these letters to you, but they get lost in the blue, cause there's no address in the stars.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most. Not where you live, what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes. There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know. So if you agree, have a drink with me, raise your glasses for a toast.
When I look in my future, you're all I can see, so honey, don't go lovin' on nobody but me.
Because I lost my job, my bills are gettin bigger. Cryin babe, 'bout to lose my mind. 100 dollar habit, aint got a penny, my woman ran off with a friend of mine. Can't keep a job, I'm too fucked up. DHS about to take my kids. Try to get well, keep gettin sicker. Sittin in the parking lot, my finger on the trigger.
I'll take my bottle and lime, and move a little further down the line, and think about how good life can be.
Do lovers really fall in love to stay?
Runnin gypsy wild. Runnin free. Gypsy wild, ain't no stoppin me. Gypsy wild, yeah I'm a rebel child. carryin on, and on, and on. I keep carryin. on.
I pray your breaks go out running down a hill. I pray a flower pot falls from a window seal and knocks you in the head like I's like to. I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls. I pray you're flyin high when your engine stalls. I pray all your dreams never come true. Wherever you are, Honey, I pray for you.
I'll walk, let go of my hand. Right now I'm hurt and you don't understand. So just be quiet, and later we will talk, just leave, don't worry, I'll walk.
I'm already there. Take a look around. I'm the sunshine in your hair. I'm the shadow on the ground. I'm the whisper in the wind, I'm your imaginary friend, and I know I'm in your prayers, oh, I'm already there.
If heaven wasn't so far away, I'd pack up the kids and go for the day.
I DO, cherish you. For the rest of my life, you don't have to think twice. I WILL, love you still, from the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control. I've waited so long to say this to you. If you're asking do I love you this much, I DO.
I need a cigarette now. Nothing but old regrets now. The drama runnin through my veins, the pressure's blowin up my brain. I swear to God, I'm going insane.
If you asked me I would smile, and we could sit and talk a while. But there's just to much to hide, and I've got nothing left inside. I'm just a little bit crazy.
Mama he's crazy. Crazy over me, and in my life is where he says he always wants to be. I've never been so loved. He beats all I've ever seen, and Mama, he's crazy, he's crazy over me.
Cheap perfume and cheaper whiskey. She winked at me when she said last call. When the parking lot was empty, we made love in a bathroom stall......with Jesus is love written on the wall. Resurrection.
I've got a lot of things to say. Got a lot of things to do today, but I throw 'em all behind, throw 'em to the side. Put 'em off til tomorrow, to keep you satisfied.
I remember your kiss like TNT, how it rattled every long gone part of me, and in the heat of the night you shook when you said my name. And the precious drop of sweat runnin down your back, like a South bound train burnin down the track. Two martyrs in a world that would never be the same...
Every time I see your bubbly face, I get the tingles in a silly place. It starts in my toes, makes me crinkle my nose.
What do I do with all I need to say? So much I want to tell you everyday. Ohh it breaks my heart, I cry these tears in the dark. I write these letters to you, but they get lost in the blue, cause there's no address in the stars.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most. Not where you live, what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes. There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know. So if you agree, have a drink with me, raise your glasses for a toast.
When I look in my future, you're all I can see, so honey, don't go lovin' on nobody but me.
Because I lost my job, my bills are gettin bigger. Cryin babe, 'bout to lose my mind. 100 dollar habit, aint got a penny, my woman ran off with a friend of mine. Can't keep a job, I'm too fucked up. DHS about to take my kids. Try to get well, keep gettin sicker. Sittin in the parking lot, my finger on the trigger.
I'll take my bottle and lime, and move a little further down the line, and think about how good life can be.
Do lovers really fall in love to stay?
Runnin gypsy wild. Runnin free. Gypsy wild, ain't no stoppin me. Gypsy wild, yeah I'm a rebel child. carryin on, and on, and on. I keep carryin. on.
I pray your breaks go out running down a hill. I pray a flower pot falls from a window seal and knocks you in the head like I's like to. I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls. I pray you're flyin high when your engine stalls. I pray all your dreams never come true. Wherever you are, Honey, I pray for you.
I'll walk, let go of my hand. Right now I'm hurt and you don't understand. So just be quiet, and later we will talk, just leave, don't worry, I'll walk.
I'm already there. Take a look around. I'm the sunshine in your hair. I'm the shadow on the ground. I'm the whisper in the wind, I'm your imaginary friend, and I know I'm in your prayers, oh, I'm already there.
If heaven wasn't so far away, I'd pack up the kids and go for the day.
I DO, cherish you. For the rest of my life, you don't have to think twice. I WILL, love you still, from the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control. I've waited so long to say this to you. If you're asking do I love you this much, I DO.
I need a cigarette now. Nothing but old regrets now. The drama runnin through my veins, the pressure's blowin up my brain. I swear to God, I'm going insane.
If you asked me I would smile, and we could sit and talk a while. But there's just to much to hide, and I've got nothing left inside. I'm just a little bit crazy.
Mama he's crazy. Crazy over me, and in my life is where he says he always wants to be. I've never been so loved. He beats all I've ever seen, and Mama, he's crazy, he's crazy over me.
Cheap perfume and cheaper whiskey. She winked at me when she said last call. When the parking lot was empty, we made love in a bathroom stall......with Jesus is love written on the wall. Resurrection.
I've got a lot of things to say. Got a lot of things to do today, but I throw 'em all behind, throw 'em to the side. Put 'em off til tomorrow, to keep you satisfied.
I remember your kiss like TNT, how it rattled every long gone part of me, and in the heat of the night you shook when you said my name. And the precious drop of sweat runnin down your back, like a South bound train burnin down the track. Two martyrs in a world that would never be the same...
Just more RaNdOm quotes
everyday that goes by, it seems like i discover something new about you. it is incredible to me how one person can and has made such a difference in my life.
i may not have the smallest waist, or the prettiest face, but i do have a big heart. if you don't like me the way i am, that is okay, because i know someone that does.
it is funny how even after all this time, i get butterflies when he grabs my hand.
you know you are a lucky girl when your best friend, secret keeper, memory makes, and everything else is your boyfriend. i am a lucky girl.
loved by the best, hated by the rest
some people need shiny cars, big houses and lots of money to be happy, but all i need is you and my kids.
men can multitask! they can scratch their balls, hog the remote, and talk shit all at the same time.
do you ever get the urge to cut peoples break lines, or is that just me?
you don't have bigger balls than me, mine are just in my chest
is facebook "poking" a form or cyber foreplay?
there are some people in this world that just give my middle finger a boner.
**breaking news** all kids with names starting with letters a-z have been recalled by all local hospitals because they forgot to install the mute and stop buttons.
roses are red, nuts are round, skirts are up, panties are down, belly to belly, skin to skin, when it is stiff, stick in.
dear obama. please remove your hands from my pockets, as i can stimulate myself. thank you.
what does a prostitute and bungee jumping have in common? the cost the same, last about as long, and if the rubber breaks, you are screwed.
someone should light the fuse on your tampon!
husband and wife are watching tv. husband says to wife, i can't decide between golf and porn. wife says to husband, watch porn, you already know how to golf.
when you become immobilized by what anybody else thinks of you, what you are saying is "your opinion of me is more important than my opinion of myself"
claiming to love someone does not mean shutting them out when the going gets tough...it means letting them in to lighten the load.
i may not have the smallest waist, or the prettiest face, but i do have a big heart. if you don't like me the way i am, that is okay, because i know someone that does.
it is funny how even after all this time, i get butterflies when he grabs my hand.
you know you are a lucky girl when your best friend, secret keeper, memory makes, and everything else is your boyfriend. i am a lucky girl.
loved by the best, hated by the rest
some people need shiny cars, big houses and lots of money to be happy, but all i need is you and my kids.
men can multitask! they can scratch their balls, hog the remote, and talk shit all at the same time.
do you ever get the urge to cut peoples break lines, or is that just me?
you don't have bigger balls than me, mine are just in my chest
is facebook "poking" a form or cyber foreplay?
there are some people in this world that just give my middle finger a boner.
**breaking news** all kids with names starting with letters a-z have been recalled by all local hospitals because they forgot to install the mute and stop buttons.
roses are red, nuts are round, skirts are up, panties are down, belly to belly, skin to skin, when it is stiff, stick in.
dear obama. please remove your hands from my pockets, as i can stimulate myself. thank you.
what does a prostitute and bungee jumping have in common? the cost the same, last about as long, and if the rubber breaks, you are screwed.
someone should light the fuse on your tampon!
husband and wife are watching tv. husband says to wife, i can't decide between golf and porn. wife says to husband, watch porn, you already know how to golf.
when you become immobilized by what anybody else thinks of you, what you are saying is "your opinion of me is more important than my opinion of myself"
claiming to love someone does not mean shutting them out when the going gets tough...it means letting them in to lighten the load.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
I am a mess!
I have shut the computer down 3 times now, and yet I just turned it back on. I am not real sure why, other than I guess just to blog.
I am sitting here with so many emotions going through my head, and watching Army Wives. I am bawling my eyes out, which I usually cry every time I watch this show, but tonight, I just can't help by wonder if it is show that is making me cry or if it is just everything else. Maybe a good mixture of both?
Today is Mothers Day, and I am missing my mom like crazy. I would give anything to hug her and tell her that I love her, as I never did that before. For as long as I can remember, I was never forthcoming with my feelings towards my mom until it was too late. I can't help but wonder sometimes if she really knew how much she meant to me. I wish she was her to give me advise on all this shit that is going on right now. Actually, I can almost hear her now. Oh how I can only imagine. I wish so badly that she could meet Bob, and actually see just how happy he makes me, and much I have changed since being with him. For the better of course. He is absolutely the best thing, aside from Dawson and Keigan, that has happened to me. I know that she would just love him!
With that being said, I must give thanks to Bobs parents for bring such a loving, kind hearted person into this world, and to all of those who had a hand in making him the man that he is today. Even through all of the bullshit, part of me still longs for some sort of acceptance, yet I just don't see it happening anytime. I have been hurt, and I know that I have said some hurtful things, but then at the same time, I know I am who I am, I am not a liar, and I say what I mean, and I mean what I say. I can admit when I am wrong. I am human. I don't have much, but I love with all that I am. I am NOT a materialistic person, and I never have been. I would never be with someone for their money, or be friends with someone just because they may be able to do something for me, or my kids. I try to let what people think and say about me, go in and out, but at the end of the day, I am human, and at some point I just can't help but to react. That old saying "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt"...BULLSHIT! A friend of mine told me the other day that she thought it was "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will break my heart" and I have never heard it put that way, but that is now what I am teaching my kids. They say time will mend a broken heart, but just as when a glass breaks and you glue it back together, there is always a crack, and in some places, a little chip missing. The heart never fully mends. Not in my opinion.
Well, real quick, on a lighter note, Keigan made me a bowl of cereal this morning for mothers day. It was so sweet. As soon as her eyes opened she told me Happy Mothers Day. Dawson did not tell me until this evening, and only AFTER I said something about him not saying anything.
It is 11:08 and I turning this thing off for the last time tonight.
Good Night.
I am sitting here with so many emotions going through my head, and watching Army Wives. I am bawling my eyes out, which I usually cry every time I watch this show, but tonight, I just can't help by wonder if it is show that is making me cry or if it is just everything else. Maybe a good mixture of both?
Today is Mothers Day, and I am missing my mom like crazy. I would give anything to hug her and tell her that I love her, as I never did that before. For as long as I can remember, I was never forthcoming with my feelings towards my mom until it was too late. I can't help but wonder sometimes if she really knew how much she meant to me. I wish she was her to give me advise on all this shit that is going on right now. Actually, I can almost hear her now. Oh how I can only imagine. I wish so badly that she could meet Bob, and actually see just how happy he makes me, and much I have changed since being with him. For the better of course. He is absolutely the best thing, aside from Dawson and Keigan, that has happened to me. I know that she would just love him!
With that being said, I must give thanks to Bobs parents for bring such a loving, kind hearted person into this world, and to all of those who had a hand in making him the man that he is today. Even through all of the bullshit, part of me still longs for some sort of acceptance, yet I just don't see it happening anytime. I have been hurt, and I know that I have said some hurtful things, but then at the same time, I know I am who I am, I am not a liar, and I say what I mean, and I mean what I say. I can admit when I am wrong. I am human. I don't have much, but I love with all that I am. I am NOT a materialistic person, and I never have been. I would never be with someone for their money, or be friends with someone just because they may be able to do something for me, or my kids. I try to let what people think and say about me, go in and out, but at the end of the day, I am human, and at some point I just can't help but to react. That old saying "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt"...BULLSHIT! A friend of mine told me the other day that she thought it was "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will break my heart" and I have never heard it put that way, but that is now what I am teaching my kids. They say time will mend a broken heart, but just as when a glass breaks and you glue it back together, there is always a crack, and in some places, a little chip missing. The heart never fully mends. Not in my opinion.
Well, real quick, on a lighter note, Keigan made me a bowl of cereal this morning for mothers day. It was so sweet. As soon as her eyes opened she told me Happy Mothers Day. Dawson did not tell me until this evening, and only AFTER I said something about him not saying anything.
It is 11:08 and I turning this thing off for the last time tonight.
Good Night.
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