I am sitting here with the kids, watching Wipeout. I think I would love to go play on all the stuff, but not really be on the show. It is absolutely stupid with the commentary. I would watch the show on mute if the kids would let me.
Anyway, I am also sitting here thinking about all kinds of thing. Life and all that it brings, and doesn't bring. I sometimes with I was born into a family that was rich and famous, but not often. I am thankful for everything that I have in my life. I just hate the struggle at times.
I spent 2 years in cosmetology school so I could do hair, which I absolutely love doing, but I do not enjoy working in corporate owned salons, and Bob doesn't like it either. He would rather I stay home with the kids vs. working retail hours, and not really making squat. So that is what I do. I mean hell, I make more in child support than I did in 1 month at a Regis Corporation salon. That company sucks! I will never work for them again. But I am ready to go back to work. I need to go back to work, but I need to be able to not work every single weekend, or every single night. I know, beggars can't be choosers. I have been giving a lot of thought into going back to school, but I don't really want to spend the next 2 years in school not making money either. There is a place I can go to that is about an hour away and do medical billing and coding, and it would take about 7 months. They have financial aid, but the drive alone is a real doozy. Ugh. I am just at a stand still in my life right now. I want to do more, to be able to help better my family, but sadly, with the economy the way it is, does it really pay for me to go to work? I mean, it's not like there is anything close by, so I would have to drive, which, with gas over $3.50 a gallon, it would be costly. Thank God my car gets about 26 mpg. We are trying to rebuild credit, save money, and pay bills all at once, with only 1 person working. It doesn't seem to be working out so well at times. LOL. Again, I guess that is just how life goes, and don't get me wrong, I am not looking for pity, just venting I guess. We are ready to move, but we know we can not afford it at the moment, and though Bob makes great money at his job, his hours are not guaranteed, therefore, neither is the money. I still do not understand this whole I.L.A union stuff, but I just wish he was an "A" button, with what they call a "regular" job. That way he could only work Monday through Friday if he wanted too.
Well, I need to get off of here. My kiddos are about to leave for the weekend with their Dad, and we are watching a show together before they go.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
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Well, it has been a couple of days since we have gone to the gym, and I am ready to get back in there. We will be going tonight when Bob gets home from work. I don't know that I have lost any weight, but I sure feel good after I work out. Tonight we will do some cardio, and resistance training.
Went to Schlitterbahn on Monday, and I don't think I want to go back. Last summer when we had season passes and went almost every weekend, my legs would itch like I had been ate up with ants. Well, same thing this time. It only happens when I go there, so I am thinking it is something they put in the water or something. I don't know, but it lasts for 3 or 4 days, and I can not stand it. I scratch my legs until I almost start bleeding.
Other than that, there is nothing really new going on. Just living, and being bored. Story of my life, I know. School is about to start, and so I think I will try to find some kind of part time job or something. I have been thinking about going back to school for medical billing and coding, that way I can work from home, but we shall see. I really wish I had it in me to go finish all my classes and get into nursing school, but I just don't think I can do it.
Oh yeah, Keigan's birthday is not this weekend, but the next weekend, and instead of the big 300+ dollar party she usually has, I think this year she will get to pick 3 people and take them somewhere and have fun. We will probably also go out to eat somewhere and people are more than welcome to come, but they have to pay for themselves. If we do that, then this is where we will have cake, and presents for those that want to bring presents.
Went to Schlitterbahn on Monday, and I don't think I want to go back. Last summer when we had season passes and went almost every weekend, my legs would itch like I had been ate up with ants. Well, same thing this time. It only happens when I go there, so I am thinking it is something they put in the water or something. I don't know, but it lasts for 3 or 4 days, and I can not stand it. I scratch my legs until I almost start bleeding.
Other than that, there is nothing really new going on. Just living, and being bored. Story of my life, I know. School is about to start, and so I think I will try to find some kind of part time job or something. I have been thinking about going back to school for medical billing and coding, that way I can work from home, but we shall see. I really wish I had it in me to go finish all my classes and get into nursing school, but I just don't think I can do it.
Oh yeah, Keigan's birthday is not this weekend, but the next weekend, and instead of the big 300+ dollar party she usually has, I think this year she will get to pick 3 people and take them somewhere and have fun. We will probably also go out to eat somewhere and people are more than welcome to come, but they have to pay for themselves. If we do that, then this is where we will have cake, and presents for those that want to bring presents.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Day 2 with the personal trainer
Well, I thought today was the end of me. I really felt as if I was going to die at the gym, but I didn't!
Today was my second meeting with Contessa, my personal trainer, and unlike my first session, I got a FULL workout. I did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine, which I am proud of, seeing as day 1, I barely made 5 minutes. We go to the gym everyday, and so I have been able to work myself up and go longer. The longest I have been on it it 35 minutes, and that was last night.
Anyway, I did my 25 minutes and the Contessa came and got me and we started my workout. The first thing we did made me feel like the elephants at the circus. You know, when they have the elephants stand on those blocks? She (Contessa) brought out this step thing this about umm, I don't know, bend your knee like you are climbing stairs, now raise your knee about waist high. I guess about 2 stairs high. Well, she showed me what to do, and so I did it. Being that I am right handed, and a little OCD, I started by putting right foot up on the elephant stand, and then I stepped up with my left foot, and then back down, but my right foot never left the thing. I did this 15 times, and trust me, it is harder than it sounds. I did it, and then it was time to switch feet. Hello, my right side is my strong side. Needless to say, I almost did not have the strength to pull my fat ass up, but I pushed through and I did it! Yay Tara! Next I did squats. Joy Joy! I had to lean against this giant ball, on the wall and roll down. I did this 15 times, and then we moved on to working on the upper body. I don't know what everything was called, but I did them all, 15 times each. 15 is my magic number. Then it was back to the same leg workout. I COULD NOT make 15 of each, but I did manage to do 12, and that was fine. The second time around on these exercises Contessa did make me sit down, but after about 5 minutes, I was ready to push on. I did not want to give up, and I didn't want her to think I was weak. We finished the legs, went back to the upper body, and then crunches. I did 50 crunches, and boy am I feeling it.
Before I go on, I have to tell you, that I was really doing 16 of everything because I hate ODD numbers.
I have one more session with Contessa, and that is Saturday, and Bob has a session with her too, but after that I will be the trainer. haha. Reason being, I have been through everything, and I know what to do, and how to do it. I think we will be fine. We will be able to encourage each other, and give each other just enough push. I can't say I am excited about my next session, but I will say that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE going to the gym. I feel so much better when I leave. I know it will be hard work, but I am not going to give up, and I am not going to let Bob give it up. If I am able to drop 80 pounds by this time next year, then you can expect the real wedding planning to start...given that we don't end up getting married before then. We shall see.
Today was my second meeting with Contessa, my personal trainer, and unlike my first session, I got a FULL workout. I did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine, which I am proud of, seeing as day 1, I barely made 5 minutes. We go to the gym everyday, and so I have been able to work myself up and go longer. The longest I have been on it it 35 minutes, and that was last night.
Anyway, I did my 25 minutes and the Contessa came and got me and we started my workout. The first thing we did made me feel like the elephants at the circus. You know, when they have the elephants stand on those blocks? She (Contessa) brought out this step thing this about umm, I don't know, bend your knee like you are climbing stairs, now raise your knee about waist high. I guess about 2 stairs high. Well, she showed me what to do, and so I did it. Being that I am right handed, and a little OCD, I started by putting right foot up on the elephant stand, and then I stepped up with my left foot, and then back down, but my right foot never left the thing. I did this 15 times, and trust me, it is harder than it sounds. I did it, and then it was time to switch feet. Hello, my right side is my strong side. Needless to say, I almost did not have the strength to pull my fat ass up, but I pushed through and I did it! Yay Tara! Next I did squats. Joy Joy! I had to lean against this giant ball, on the wall and roll down. I did this 15 times, and then we moved on to working on the upper body. I don't know what everything was called, but I did them all, 15 times each. 15 is my magic number. Then it was back to the same leg workout. I COULD NOT make 15 of each, but I did manage to do 12, and that was fine. The second time around on these exercises Contessa did make me sit down, but after about 5 minutes, I was ready to push on. I did not want to give up, and I didn't want her to think I was weak. We finished the legs, went back to the upper body, and then crunches. I did 50 crunches, and boy am I feeling it.
Before I go on, I have to tell you, that I was really doing 16 of everything because I hate ODD numbers.
I have one more session with Contessa, and that is Saturday, and Bob has a session with her too, but after that I will be the trainer. haha. Reason being, I have been through everything, and I know what to do, and how to do it. I think we will be fine. We will be able to encourage each other, and give each other just enough push. I can't say I am excited about my next session, but I will say that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE going to the gym. I feel so much better when I leave. I know it will be hard work, but I am not going to give up, and I am not going to let Bob give it up. If I am able to drop 80 pounds by this time next year, then you can expect the real wedding planning to start...given that we don't end up getting married before then. We shall see.
Friday, July 15, 2011
starting a new life style...oh boy
So, now that Bob is more than 3 months post-op of his lap-band surgery, we have decided to set out on our journey to a new life style. Being healthier, not only for ourselves, but the kids as well. In doing that, I know that we will struggle with the commitment that it is going to take, but I think as long as we are there to support each other, than we will be able to do it.
The hardest parts are going to be:
#1. STOP SMOKING
#2. DON'T GIVE UP WHEN THE WORKOUTS SEEM TO GET TOO HARD
#3. (for me) I HAVE TO ACTUALLY EAT MORE FOOD
I have am horrible about only eating once a day. The food we eat 90% of the time is fairly healthy, I think. I mean, we are not eating out all the time, we eat a lot of grilled chicken, or baked chicken. Not very much pork. Not a lot of junk food, but sometimes we do splurge and eat out and eat junk.
Today, I went to my first session with a personal trainer. She was awesome, and I wish I could afford more than the 3 sessions that I have with her. I may need it. Lol. Maybe later on, I will buy a group of sessions.
Anyway, today's workout was not a full work out because of all the other stuff we had to go over and do, but I am telling you, what work out I did get in, WORKED ME OUT. My legs felt like noodles after only 5 minutes on the elliptical machine, (which I hate to begin with) and I was dying after only 2 minutes. That is HORRIBLE, I know, but I will work my way up there. I have to do cardio at the very least. 5 times a week, for at least 45 minutes, working my way up to at least an hour. Keeping this fat girls heart rate above 146 the entire time. OH BOY! In doing all of this, I should be able to drop 2 pound per week. HAHA. We shall see how this works out.
I do not ever tell anybody how much I weigh, but I will tell it today. 268! OMG. This is the biggest I have ever been in my whole life, and I am sick of it. I was 215 when my second child was born. I want out of the 2's all together.
Wish us luck.....
The hardest parts are going to be:
#1. STOP SMOKING
#2. DON'T GIVE UP WHEN THE WORKOUTS SEEM TO GET TOO HARD
#3. (for me) I HAVE TO ACTUALLY EAT MORE FOOD
I have am horrible about only eating once a day. The food we eat 90% of the time is fairly healthy, I think. I mean, we are not eating out all the time, we eat a lot of grilled chicken, or baked chicken. Not very much pork. Not a lot of junk food, but sometimes we do splurge and eat out and eat junk.
Today, I went to my first session with a personal trainer. She was awesome, and I wish I could afford more than the 3 sessions that I have with her. I may need it. Lol. Maybe later on, I will buy a group of sessions.
Anyway, today's workout was not a full work out because of all the other stuff we had to go over and do, but I am telling you, what work out I did get in, WORKED ME OUT. My legs felt like noodles after only 5 minutes on the elliptical machine, (which I hate to begin with) and I was dying after only 2 minutes. That is HORRIBLE, I know, but I will work my way up there. I have to do cardio at the very least. 5 times a week, for at least 45 minutes, working my way up to at least an hour. Keeping this fat girls heart rate above 146 the entire time. OH BOY! In doing all of this, I should be able to drop 2 pound per week. HAHA. We shall see how this works out.
I do not ever tell anybody how much I weigh, but I will tell it today. 268! OMG. This is the biggest I have ever been in my whole life, and I am sick of it. I was 215 when my second child was born. I want out of the 2's all together.
Wish us luck.....
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Absolutely Appauled!
Count 1- Murder in the first degree murder.......NOT GUILTY
Count 2- Aggravated child abuse......................NOT GUILTY
Count 3- Aggravated manslaughter of a child.....NOT GUILTY
Count 4- Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 5-Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 6-Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 7-Providing false information to police.....GUILTY
This is the verdict in the Casey Anthony murder trial. The state of Florida, did a huge disservice in the justice of this 2 year old baby! That bitch knows damn good and well what happen to her child, and she isn't speaking. That alone makes her guilty, in my eyes.
I watched a good bit of the trial on TV, and as I watched the prosecutors, I knew they were doing a piss poor job, but I also figured the jury (seven of whom are parents) would find her GUILTY. There is evidence that a MURDER was committed, and it all points at Casey Anthony, yet, it was not enough? Really? The dead, decaying body was in the trunk of her car before being dumped. She was driving her car around, going out partying and getting tattooed while suppose to be looking for her "missing" child.
I am actually sick at my stomach and could go on, but I think I will take a nap now, and pray that someone does to that bitch just as was done to her baby!
Count 2- Aggravated child abuse......................NOT GUILTY
Count 3- Aggravated manslaughter of a child.....NOT GUILTY
Count 4- Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 5-Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 6-Providing false information to police....GUILTY
Count 7-Providing false information to police.....GUILTY
This is the verdict in the Casey Anthony murder trial. The state of Florida, did a huge disservice in the justice of this 2 year old baby! That bitch knows damn good and well what happen to her child, and she isn't speaking. That alone makes her guilty, in my eyes.
I watched a good bit of the trial on TV, and as I watched the prosecutors, I knew they were doing a piss poor job, but I also figured the jury (seven of whom are parents) would find her GUILTY. There is evidence that a MURDER was committed, and it all points at Casey Anthony, yet, it was not enough? Really? The dead, decaying body was in the trunk of her car before being dumped. She was driving her car around, going out partying and getting tattooed while suppose to be looking for her "missing" child.
I am actually sick at my stomach and could go on, but I think I will take a nap now, and pray that someone does to that bitch just as was done to her baby!
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