I'm gonna miss this

SO, softball and baseball season is almost over for both kids and I must admit, I am going to miss it! I look forward to this time of year, even though I often times feel like I can't wait until it is over. Crazy I know.

Next will be here before I know it, and I will be doing it all over again.

I, along with the kids, have meet some great people, mostly at the softball fields, and I enjoy watching their kids just as much as my own. Next year, Keigan will move up to the next division and instead of the coach pitching the ball, it will be the girls. Scary, but exciting. I hope is that when Keigan get hits with the ball, she won't throw herself down, but yet, shake it off, and knock the hell out of the next pitch. I think she will be happy, she should be on her favorite coaches team and she is looking forward to that.
I don't think Dawson is going to play baseball at all next year. Excited and sad about this. He wants to play football in the 7th grade, and I am just not big on forking out all that money for him to play both. We shall see what happens. I don't think he will like football as much as he thinks, but I could be wrong. He really wanted to play at his old school, mostly because it is a smaller district I think, and all the coaches were pumping him up and getting him excited about playing, and building his ego. Ugh. Just what every 12, almost 13 year old boy needs....someone feeding into the ego, therefore feeding into that "I know it all" attitude. How exciting?!? I am so not looking forward to more of that, but I do want him to have the experience and succeed and accelerate in sports. Hell, I ain't going to lie, I hope he gets a scholarship to college playing sports! Only time will tell.

Couldn't sleep even if I wanted to now.

Well, seems it is going to be a long night for me. It is storming outside, and I am terrified of bad weather. I know, how pathetic. I am going to 34 in week and I am terrified of the weather. Actually, as bad as it is outside, I should probably turn this brand new computer off, unplug it and maybe watch tv, but...That is boring, and plus I gave Keigan free reign of the remote, so she is watching an episode of 16 and Pregnant, on demand, which I have already seen. Probably not the best show for my 8 year old to be watching, but she loves that show, and maybe she will see how the girls struggle and not want to have kids until she is 30! Wishful thinking on my part, I am sure.
I have been pretty busy today, cleaning and doing the mommy and wife thing. It sure feels good to have a clean house, I just need to finish all the laundry and clean my bedroom. The bedroom as become the catch all while cleaning the rest of the house. I guess that is how it goes though. At least now I am able to clean one room at time. That use to not be the case. See, I am self diagnosed with adult ADD and I have to force myself to do some things, like clean one room at a time or else nothing ever really gets cleaned, and if it does, it's not in a timely manner. I would pick something up in one room and go to put it where it belongs and I would get side tracked and start cleaning in the second room, and so on.
I am also a little OCD about a lot of things. This is a subject that I could probably go on about for a while. Lets see....

1. I can not stand for my hands or feet to be dirty.
2. I wash my hair 2 times every time I was it. Sometimes 4 if 2 doesn't seem to be enough.
3. Odd numbers don't work for me. Hence washing my hair 4 times and not 3. If I am buying more that one of something at the grocery store, it is always in even numbers.
4. When I buy new socks, say a pack of 8, before I wear them I have to mark them. L1 R1, L2 R2. The letter being which foot it goes on, and the number being what pair it is. A left sock can not go on the right foot, or the other way around.
5. I count everything.
6. I smell everything that I eat or drink...even water.


That is just a few things. I have gotten better over the years, but these are things that I just can not stop doing. I guess I am pretty lucky though, because there are some people who have NO control and OCD controls their life.


Anyway, this seems to be a pretty random posting, but then again, most of everything I do is pretty random. My brain goes a million miles per hour from the time I get up, until I pass out. I can not ever seem to stick with one subject when I blog. Hmm, maybe that is my self diagnosis working again? Who knows. I sit and I read other blogs, all the time, and I wish I could write like some of these people, but that just isn't my cards apparently. None the less, I enjoy typing, and this is a way for me to just let stuff go. I have had to learn how to censor myself, sometimes anyway, as to not to piss people off, but then there are also times where I really do not give a shit. I do however wish there was a way that I could block some people from reading what I post, but then again, my haters would not have anything to talk about.

It is 11:22 at night, and I am hungry. We had spaghetti for dinner, which is not my favorite so I never eat very much of it. The bad thing is, I don't eat very much during the day either. My metabolism  suffers from this. I need to force myself to eat and get back into the gym. I really miss the gym. I always feel so good after a good workout. I am thinking that I want to try this Body by Vi stuff, and that Sensa stuff that is out now, but I don't know. We shall see.

Well, I guess since the dryer just buzzed, I will get off of here, fold some more clothes and maybe take the remote away from the kiddo......

What the hell is Obama thinking?!?!

This dumbass President that this country has, is an absolute IDIOT! After all the shit that has come out, and the fact that he should have never even been able to run the first time, much less get elected, has decided to run again, and this time his big claim is he supports same sex marriage. Fucking moron.
I don't say that because I am against same sex marriage, but because this is his way of thinking that he can win the majority over again? Really? Well, someone should probably do a little research on the issue at hand. I was watching an interview earlier and a bunch of gay and lesbian couples were very offended by this. Saying it made them feel like he was pretty much trying to use gay and lesbians as way to win office again, and that basically it was calling them stupid. Stupid enough to vote someone into the highest office chair based on the fact that said official all of a sudden supports their lifestyle. Ugh.

Missing: Scott Rascoe

So, this past week has been a little crazy. All of my days are running together, and emotions are high.

Before I get too far into this post, let me say that I honestly believe that friends are the FAMILY that we choose for ourselves.

Saturday May 5, 2012
Dawson had a field trip to Schlitterbahn in Galveston. Keigan was with her dad, fishing, which she says they only caught 3 shad by the way. Bob and I went to the movies to see The Lucky One. I read the book first, and I am glad I did, because as always, the book was a million times better. After that we went and enjoyed a visit with Ronnie and Cindy until it was time for them to go get their girls from a local water park and us to go get Dawson from the school. After that we went to Anahuac to hang out with Ra-Ra for her birthday celebration. They had some friends over and we were all outside and one of their friends and his son got out some guitars and started playing and singing. I love it. Reminded me of growing up, and how much I miss those days. I wish I would have learned how to play the guitar. I want to take lessons, and I have for a long time, but I doubt that will ever happen. My kids are missing out on what I cherished the most as a child.

Sunday,
We went to a birthday party for Bob's cousins' kids. It was at the party that I was aware that my friend Cindy (who I was just at her house) was in serious need of friends. Her brother had been missing since Saturday evening and they were searching for him. I don't know her brother, but I did not ask questions at the time. I just did what I would want friends to do for me, and that is help. We left the birthday party and headed right to where they were going to search some woods. We searched, came up with nothing and then got word that Texas Equusearch was headed to Baytown to set up a command post and help in the search and rescue, or recovery of my friends brother. We headed over to where they were going to set up the CP and while we waited for Equusearch to get there, some people were out on ATV's in the wooded area where we were at and they were not able to come up with anything either.
Once the Equusearch people got there they did some more foot searching in the woods, and on ATV's and then we all headed to an old abandon hospital. They sent teams in and they came out with nothing as well. Back to the CP we went, and then the search was suspended for the night because it was too dark to really do anything else.

Monday,
A new CP was set up at a church and foot searchers were sent back to the abandon hospital, and ATV teams were sent to an old oil field area. I was on a team that went into the hospital. It was horrible. Though we did not see any, you could tell that homeless people live in this place, and the conditions where horrid. There were 2 teams, and we covered every inch of the place that we could. If I never went back into something like that, it would be too soon, but at the same time, I would do it all over again, knowing the reason I was there.
I had to leave at about 2:45 and go get Keigan and Dawson from school, then I went to Deer Park to pick up a friends daughter for her, so that she could stay and help search. I would say by 5, that Equusearch suspended the search, with almost 3 hours of daylight left. They said their people were tired and had been out too long. This disgusted me because most of the people that were there from Equusearch had not done anything. 2 of the people had gone on the foot search, and maybe 3 on ATV's that morning, and it wasn't until after we finished searching the hospital that more ATV's were sent out to join those few that were already out there. Whatever. It was just very disturbing to me.

Tuesday,
There were a lot more ATV searchers out this morning than had been yet. They were working some good leads, but unfortunately still came up with nothing. Equusearch said that have decided to suspend all search efforts for good. What?!?!?!? The day wasn't even half over. While I believe this organization is awesome in what they do, and I really want to join them, I think the search coordinator was lazy and did a piss poor job, and really did not want to listen to the family about some things.

I left some stuff out, but only because I do not remember what days it happened on.

Like I told my friends though, Equusearch may have called off their search, that does not mean that the rest of us have to stop looking for Scott Rascoe.


Here are some things we know

Scott Rascoe is believed to have last been seen the evening of May 5, 2012. I think it was his daughter that was contacted by his ex girlfriend claiming that he had just shot at her house, which according to the police is a lie. Never happened. Scott was not known to have a gun, but this started the family thinking and so his son went to look for his own gun and it was gone. The scope had been taken off and a note left for his son simply telling him here are the keys to his motorcycle and the title and  that he loved him. Then I guess around 1:30 in the morning the daughter found a note on her back porch with a debit card and instructions how to use it and that he loved her.
The gun that was taken is a .22 short rifle.

The past week....

This past week has been slow, long, and drawn out, but I have enjoyed it. Surprisingly!

Sunday, Bob and I decided to go look at new furniture. We had to do something. My back could not take the ol couch anymore, and I was sick of sleeping at the dining room table or in a zero gravity lawn chair, when by back goes out...which it tends to do on a semi regular basis these days.
Anyway, we got some coupon/flyer thing in the mail for Conn's and it said to apply online to see if you get approved before actually going to the store. So, Bob's immediate response was "get on line and see what they say!" and so I did, and those idiots said APPROVED! With that being said, and the email and all the other required documents in hand (except the coupon, because I forgot it) we went to Conn's like we had any good sense and all the money in Bill Gates' bank account. (in reality, we had ZERO money!) Thanks IRS and the hubs unfortunate bout of gallbladder issues, that required a 3 day stay in the hospital.
We walked in and of course were immediately welcomed by Frances who asked what we were looking for and could she help us find anything, blah, blah, blah. Well, we told her about the coupon and the email saying we were approved, and so it all begins...We found what we liked, Frances wrote down all of the info that she needed and then proceeds to ask do we need anything else, like a television, computer, camera, or anything. I say no, Bob says, "what do you have?"
Long story short, we got the new living room furniture, a new Dell desktop, and a new lens for my camera. (mother's day and birthday gifts for me) I did not want to do all that, nor did I ask. Yes, the hubs knows I have been wanting the lens, but I was willing and ready to wait for that. Nope, we got it all that day....and didn't pay a single penny! Good and bad. lol. Got something that we had to have, something that would come in handy, something I could have waited for, and ANOTHER BILL. Oh well, I guess you only live once. With all of that being said, there is no penalty for paying it off early, which is what is going to happen, but not until after I pay for my awesome bedroom furniture, who thanks to my MeMe, I was able to get for a great deal. A steal really. That will paid very soon though.

 Monday was nothing special. Bob had to have blood work done. I cut, colored and highlighted my aunts hair and then it was softball time.

Tuesday, I had the chance to try out my new lens by taking senior pictures for my cousin. I have always loved taking pictures, and have been wanting to take a photography class really bad, and I never thought that I would get to do anything like this. I had so much fun. I can't stop thinking about it, or looking at the pictures. lol.

I think I did a pretty dang good job, even if I do say so myself! The icing on top of the cake....I got paid for it...and I don't mean 20 or 40 bucks! I was not expecting that, and you have no clue how good that made me feel! I know I still need a lot of practice, and should probably learn how to use the photoshop elements 9 that came with my new computer, but still...not too shabby for a beginner!!!!! This is what I want to do when I grow up! At 33 (34 in a few days) I have finally figured it out! Yay me.

Wednesday, the kids got out of school early. It was actually pointless to send them to school if you ask me, but whatever. We picked up Keigan and then Bob had a doctors appointment for some pre-op stuff, and surgery will be in a couple of weeks. Then we came home, Bob took the kids swimming while I did some laundry and played around with Shay's pictures and then we went to dinner with lots of great people for Pops' birthday. Pops is the father in law.

Today is Thursday and Keigan got to stay home from school. Her class was going on a field trip to the Downtown Aquarium and she did not want to go. I had told her when she said that she did not want to go that she could stay home that day and she and I would go to the movies, but that was before the extended hospital stay, but she and I have had a great mommy and daughter day and she is happy with what we have done.
Now, we are just waiting for Dawson to get home from his first detention and then it will be off to baseball practice!!!

Loving Life Today!

Crazy little thing called LIFE

Ugh. Where do I even begin? This past week and weekend were CRAZY.
Bob was in the hospital for  3 days with gallbladder issues. They ended up doing a procedure where they put a camera down his throat and went down and checked everything out. Made a cut in the common bile duct so that no stones could escape and go into the pancreas. They wanted to go in the next day and take the gallbladder out, but Bob did not want to be put to sleep two days in a row, and I can't say that I blame him. I wouldn't want it either. So, now I am waiting for him to wake up so we can go to the doctor's office and get some paperwork for him to go have some blood work done and then set up a date for surgery.
Bob's being in hospital resulted in much family drama and I am yet again, a piece of shit, fat ugly whore who is only with him for his money etc. I will not get into it on here other than what I have just said. Just know that
#1. He doesn't have "money" so to speak. We live pay check to pay check just like most Americans.

I am Bob's wife, and we tell each other everything. Sometimes I don't even have to tell him when something is bothering me, he already knows, and in cases like that, he knows what the problem is that is bothering me. I will not try to explain or defend myself, as there is no need. The people in my life that matter already know the truth. However, I would be lying if I said I did not want to write a full, blown out "vent" post, but I will not go there. I can not dwell on others self pity, hate and jealousy. I have better things to do.

Now, on to better things....Both kids had ball games Friday night and they both did awesome! Keigan's team played awesome. The best they have played all year, and everybody was so excited. It was a very close game, but we didn't win. It is okay though. All of the girls seem to be good sports and they are all learning and having fun. I think it helps that they have a coach that is not hard on them and only wants them to have fun and learn the game.

Dawson's team played awesome too! Probably the best they have done all year as well, but they are first place in their league. Dawson was 4th at bat, and got a triple on the first pitch. (now that I think about it,I think Keigan was 4th at bat and she got a triple as well) I think it was his next at bat that he struck out, which was bogus call by the ump, but it doesn't matter. That is when the attitude kicked in. This child has horrible sportsmanship when comes to himself. Ugh, I just want to jerk him off the field at times like this.

I ended up having to leave and Keigan to her game so I did not get to finish watching, but I know they were able to win, and not let the other team get more than 1 run.

Anyway, I just noticed that it is almost 10 so I guess I am going to wake the hubs up and get going.

Obama...IS A FAKE!

You have seriously got to be kidding me?!?
I have said all along that this ignorant son of a bitch had NO business being the President of the United States of America. I do not normally follow politics, and to be honest, I still don't, for the most part. I have my reasonings, and typically I keep my opinion about all this kind of shit to myself for different reasons. I don't vote, and again, there are reasons.

1. My reasoning is this...simply put, IT IS NOT AMERICA'S VOTE that decides the fate of our country. I think that if AMERICANS want their vote to count, then they need to be calling in and texting for the contestants on American Idol! Period. The "electoral college" is the reason that I typically do not follow, keep up with, or vote, when it comes to political aspects. I have better things to do I guess.

I am sure that many people will disagree with my thought process on all of this, and that is fine too. We are all entitled to our own opinion. I am pretty sure that I have blogged about issues similar to these, almost 4 years ago when this fucktard was running for office. I will have to go back and see if I can find them on MySpace.
I said then, and I will say it now, I think Obama is the Anti-Christ!

Here is the article that I read today:

THIS IS WHAT THE LINK SAYS: A crushing situation is emerging for, not only Barack Obama, but also for the American people as a landmark statement has been made by the Obama administration that is going to turn the entire 2012 Presidential race and potentially much more on its head.

Lawyers representing the current sitting President of the United States of America have been forced, under penalty of perjury, to admit that the long-form birth certificate presented by the White House in April of 2011 is a total forgery.

In a NJ ballot access eligibility case spawned by Tea Party activists, attorneys representing Obama had to admit the document presented to the American people by Obama himself is actually knowingly faked and was used to fool the American public into believing a complete fabrication.

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What could be the most shocking aspect of the situation, however, may be the fact that Obama and his attorneys have crafted an argument that truly boggles the mind.

In a direct assault on everything the citizens of the USA take for granted, in layman’s terms, his attorneys literally made the argument during a hearing on April 10th that because the document was so obviously faked and could not possibly be considered proof of citizenship, the document itself should not be allowed as evidence in the case.

Obama is now basically asserting that only a legitimate document should be allowed as evidence in this case and therefore this one should be thrown out due to the fact that it’s not real. The Judge agreed.

In what may turn out to be one of the biggest scandals in the history of the United States, the Obama administration itself has now virtually admitted to High Crimes and Misdemeanors and to deceiving the public into believing a lie that was ironically intended to distract awareness from the actual issue that truly determines his eligibility, or lack thereof.

Even though now it has become evident that Obama cannot prove he was born in the Unites States after all, even before that admission in court, it was already known that he was not actually eligible to become either Vice President or President, due to the fact that Obama is not a “Natural Born” Citizen.

Although presenting the fake birth certificate to the American people was an attempt to falsely prove his automatic eligibility, even prior to the ‘President’s’ issuance of the fabricated document to the public last spring, attorneys arguing against his eligibility since 2007 proved that Obama was simply ineligible due to the fact that only one of his parents was a US citizen.

Ironically, arguments have been made against this age-old constitutional mandate with regard to Obama’s eligibility by using John McCain’s ’08 eligibility situation as an example, while missing the fact that even McCain’s parents were both born in the USA and therefore was ultimately allowed to run for office, even though he was born on a US military base in Panama.

This simply isn’t the case for Obama, aside from the fact that his administration has now admitted to open criminal activity and blatant ineligibility on multiple fronts.

Daily Pen Editor, Pen Johannson released a story Monday in a devastating editorial explaining the circumstances as one that is sure to set off a firestorm of controversy and could end up creating a gigantic constitutional and legislative nightmare of epic proportions in the weeks and months to come.

Brace yourself folks, it’s bound to get a little bumpy.



NOW, to all of those "supporters" that said "yes, he has every right to run" and he is a great man, I want to know, DO YOU STILL FEEL THAT WAY? If so, I think you probably need help as well. 
This man baldfaced lied about being an AMERICAN! He doesn't support, or stand behind what this country stands for, or anything else that is the AMERICAN WAY! He is a fucking outcast and needs to be impeached! 
I wish Hilary Clinton would run! I would vote for her!!!! At least when we had a Clinton in office, we as a country, was out of debt, gas was not 4 dollars a gallon, and the economy was just a better place. 

As for now, I am done with my rant, but I am sure this will not be the last I post on this matter. 

Fuckin Perfect.....Love this song

Made a wrong turn, Once or twice
Dug my way out, Blood and fire
Bad decisions, That's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way, it's all good", It didn't slow me down
Mistaken, Always second guessing
Under estimated, Look, I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than Fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me.

You're so mean,
When you talk, About yourself, You are wrong.
Change the voices, In your head
Make them like you Instead.

So complicated,
Look happy, You'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game.
It's enough, I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/pink-perfect-lyrics.html ]

The whole world stares so I swallow the fear,
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line and we try, try, try,
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
We change ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that? Why do I do that?
(Why do I do that?)

A few of my favorite things, and not so favorite things

First of all, why in the hell does it have to wait until 10:30 at night to start storming? I am beyond terrified of bad weather, and so is my daughter. She just came in here crying and asked me if she could sleep with me, but since I will either be sleeping at the dinning room table or in a zero gravity lawn chair because of my back, I had to tell her that she could sleep on the couch. So, that is one of my not so favorite things....bad weather.....
Some of my favorite things...

 

• The smell of Downy Unstoppable scent boost, with the blue label. It smells so dang good!
• Music. I believe songs are our thoughts that we can't put into words our self, that someone else has done for us. 
• Watching my kids do things for the first time. I can not imagine my life without them. 
• My iPhone. I <3 it! 
• Army Wives
• Grey's Anatomy
• Private Practice
• Softball, though I never played, I have come to love watching it.
• Road trips...alone or with someone, it doesn't matter. 
• Truck stops! No clue why, but I love them. You can find some neat stuff in those places. 
• Pictures. I use to love having my picture taken, but that has changed over the last couple of years due to my weight, but I love looking at pictures, even of people that I don't know. I also love old pictures, from way back in the day. 
• Clip Art.
• PINK
• Malibu Rum
• Hanging out with friends
• Dancing...which I don't get to do anymore. Best dance partner in the world, Sam Bass and Jerry Taylor
• Camping
• Baking
• Blogging
• Reading
• Floating the Guadalupe and Frio Rivers
• Tattoos. I have them and want more of them.

Some of my not so favorite things...

• Drama. We all have it, but that doesn't mean that we like it. 
• Politics
• People who think they know it all
• Sponge Bob Square Pants. Can't stand that creepy little bastard. 
• The fact that I am not crafty.
• The fact that I am addicted to fountain Dr. Pepper, and I do not eat enough, therefore, I don't lose the weight that I want too, but rather gain it because I can not function with out my addiction. 
• I am probably the most insecure person you will ever know. 
• Cars. I am not a car kinda girl. 
• The saying "the good die young" because it seems to be true. 
• Lizard Lick Towing. It's got to be one of the stupidest shows that I have seen, along with Storage Wars and all the other spinoff shows of the sort. 
• Two faced people.
• People who think they are owed something, for nothing.
• The fact that I feel like I deserve less than I have.
•  The fact that I did not finish high school, yet I have been to college and finished and want to go back. 
• That my kids are not as close to their cousins as I was when I was growing up, and that they don't get to experience family gatherings like I did as a child. 

Friday the 13th...

Okay, so I don't typically believe in the Friday the 13th superstitions, but yesterday as I was getting ready to go to the Relay For Life, that I have been looking forward to for more than a month, I came to dread it. Not because I didn't want to go,  but because of my back.
After I had gotten out of the shower and dried off, I bent over to put a towel on my wet head and I was unable to stand back up. Instead, I fell on my head (thankfully I had a little cushion from the towel) and there I laid, in the floor, unable to move without excruciating pain for about 20 minutes. There was nobody home to help me get up, get to a phone, or go get Keigan from school, so what choice did I have other than to try to pretend that everything was fine, and just keep on keepin on? After I made it to my phone I did text the hubs and let him know what had happen, but as I expected, he did not have his phone on him or something, because he was out at the race track helping set things up for RFL.
I managed to get dressed and get down the stairs and into my car, and all the while pretending that the pain was not really there, I went and picked up Keigan and then came back to the house and just sat here, hoping it really would just go away and I would be fine.
Once Bob and Dawson got home we went to the RFL. I have never been to anything like this, and I don't think this will be my last one. Despite the horrible pain I was in, I tried not to complain too much, and I had a great time. It was an emotional experience, but in a good way. I bought a bag that has a candle in that you light in honor of, or in memory of. We did ours in memory of my mom of course, and Keigan lit the candle. She was so proud, and it really is amazing what an 8 year old can actually understand when it comes to some things. Like a song, or poem, things you just don't expect a little child to understand.

 ^This is before the first lap started. There was a lady singing "I'm gonna love you through it" and Keigan was bawling her little eyes out.

 Getting ready to walk the SURVIVORS lap with Ra-Ra

 These are the shirts that survivors were wearing. I wish I could have gotten a picture of  all the survivors. It really does give you hope. Seeing so many people who have been given such horrible news, and beaten all the odds. Some that were just beginning their fight....

I miss my mom more and more every single day. There honestly has not been a day that has gone by since June 6, 2008 that I have not thought about her and cried. It is still very hard for me to come to terms with her death. I do not understand it. I am so happy that she is not suffering anymore, but for my own selfish reasons, I guess, I want her back here with me, and my kids. I want her to meet Bob and get to know him, just as I want him to know her. I want her to see that I have done the best that I could with my kids, and in life.

Before I close this, I want to ask that anybody that reads this, please, take a moment and say a prayer, and donate when you can to the American Cancer Society. Help raise awareness and help find a cure.

THE DASH by Linda Ellis

I seen a link on Facebook for a website, (I forget the site now) and I think this is something to live by. I DID NOT WRITE THIS. It was written by Linda Ellis.

The DASH
I read of a man who stood to speak at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone from beginning...to the end.

He noted the first came the date of her birth,
then spoke of the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
was  the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive on Earth
and now only those that love her
know what what that little line is worth.

For it matters not how much we own.
The cars...the house...the cash...
What matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our dash

So think about this long and hard;
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real
and always try to understand
the way people feel.

And be less quick to anger
and show appreciation  more
and love the people in our lives
like we never loved before

If we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile...
Remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while

So when your eulogy is read
with your life's actions to rehash
would you be proud of the things they say
about how you spent your dash?

Random Quotes...I love these things.

Promises mean everything, but after they are broken, sorry means nothing.

LIVE for TODAY
LOVE for TOMORROW, and
LAUGH at all your YESTERDAYS.
NEVER regret the PAST.
ALWAYS HOPE for the FUTURE, and
CHERISH every moment you have.

The most memorable people in your life will be the ones who loved you even when you weren't very lovable.

It's hard to be fit as a fiddle when you are shaped like a cello

Family isn't always blood. It's the people in your life who want you in theirs; the ones who accept you for who you are, who would do anything to see you smile, and who love you, no matter what.

When you want something you've never had, you have to do something that you've never done.

You have to take the good with the bad, smile when you're sad, love what you've got and remember what you had...Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from your mistakes, but never regret. People change, things go wrong, just remember, life goes on.

Keep your eyes on the sunshine and you will never notice the shadow

Be alive, authentic, creative, hopeful, kind, loving and passionate

Accept your past without regrets.
Handle your present with confidence.
Face your future without fear.

Yeah, I have made mistakes, just as you have, but life does not come with instructions

No matter how strong a girl is, she always has a breaking point.

Trying to explain how much I miss you is like trying to count the stars in the sky...IMPOSSIBLE

I have a quick brain, attached to a smart mouth.

The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others on how you demand to be treated. Don't settle for anything other than respect.

Spend time with those you love. One of these days you will either say " I wish I has" or "I'm glad I did"

People don't always need advice. Sometimes all they really need is a hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, and a heart to understand.

Long weekend coming to an end

Whew, I thought this long weekend would never come to an end. It has been a great weekend, but I'm ready for everything to go back to normal...as normal as it gets around here anyway.
My brain is going 100 miles per hour with things that I was going to write about, but now...I am drawing a blank. Ugh. I hate that. Maybe that is my minds way of telling to get off the computer and do some stuff around this house, which has been neglected all weekend, but what fun is that? I have started on some things, well, 1...LAUNDRY, and I am sure the only reason I have started on that is because both kids have ball games tonight and Keigan's uniform shirt needed to be washed, so that, along with some of their school clothes is in the washer now, which I think just finished. I will put them in the dryer soon, but what I really need to do it clean the kitchen and dining room, but I really do not feel like cleaning around Dawson while he working on his project for school. I have a feeling he is going to make a bigger mess so there is no need to clean yet.
Speaking of this project, I am not really sure what the hell he is suppose to be doing, other than making a continent and then dividing it into 7 and doing some sort of land forms or something, be has a leaf or 2 from the tree outside, some grass, and some ground cloves....that is going to be his desert? Should be very interesting. I know my house smells like ground cloves, which smell like crap! I will try to take a picture of it when he is finished and post it.
OMG, I swear my son is not the brightest color in the box. He just put AX Body Spray in his nose because "the deserts stink."
Anyway, I guess I will get off of here and do something productive....maybe.
1:15 pm

Easter....since when is it like Christmas?

Ugh, so it is yet another holiday weekend, and we have a lot going on.
Thursday, Dawson had a baseball game, and they played a really good game, and seen some horrible sportsman ship from the other team. I hope they learned from it, because some of the boys on Dawson's team exhibit some of the same traits, Dawson included! I missed the first game of the season because I was out of town for a wedding, but they did win that game and then they got on a bad streak. Don't really know what the deal was, but the last couple of games they have really stepped up their game and started doing a lot better. Dawson plays 3rd base, most of the time, but he has pitched in a couple of games as well. (I think he needs to stick to 3rd base until he can get some pitching lessons...from a pro) but he does pretty good for a short while. Then he gets freaked out and it is all down hill from there. Anyway, Thursday's game, he got a couple of good hits, got hit by the pitcher once, and stole 2nd, and even scored. He made some good plays, had a run down with the catcher trying to keep a kid from scoring, and he got the last out of the game. It was great.
Friday, (today) Keigan had softball practice. She is really getting a lot better and really loves the game. She has her moments, but all in all, she LOVES it. She wishes more people would come see her game, but she'll be alright. lol.
Anyway, now to my point of this posting tonight....We just went to Wal-mart to get the kiddos a couple of things for Easter and you would have thought it was freaking Christmas in that crazy store. Some people really go off the deep end with this stuff. Seeing as we are trying to limit the kids sugar intake, we did not buy a whole mess of candy. Yes, we did get them some candy, but we also figured they would be getting candy from other places as well, so...instead, we bought each of them a little basket to put their little bit of candy in, and got each of them something that they have been asking for. Dawson will get a new headset for the X-BOX (because he is a game dork) and Keigan will get a new case for her iPod. She has been asking for an OtterBox for it since she got it, but HELLO, I am not spending that much money on a silly little Easter gift. She will love the one that we got her, and maybe one day she will get the OtterBox. HaHaHa.
I did see a lot of people buying insane amounts of things for their kids, and I could not help but think to myself, "these people are idiots" and I know maybe that is wrong, but I can't help it. Of course my kids are just as spoiled a many others in this world, but really? For Easter? It seems like all holidays are about anymore is MONEY. Maybe it is just me, but.... Hell, the only holiday I really like Halloween. Lol. If I wasn't so disgusted with myself, I would still get me a cute costume and go trick-or-treating my damn self.

Oh well, I really need to get off of here. It is 12:20 in the morning and I have to get up early. I have a ton of stuff to do in the morning. Bob is already sound asleep on the couch and frankly, I over his snoring for now. Lol.
Good Night,
ME

No clue what the hell I am doing anymore....

So I was going to start a new blog, because either I am apparently too dumb to figure out how to change the name of this one, or you just simply can't change the name. Anyway, so I did start the new blog. Posted a link  to it, and now I have decided I like this one, mostly because it is already all the colors that I want and all that good stuff. So, if you are keeping up, keep up with this one. I can not make any promises, but I am going to try to keep up with blogging more. I miss it. Back when MySpace was cool, I blogged all the time.....I guess we shall see what happens.

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