sorry, i have been busy....

ugh, so summer is here, and that is good. it means i don't have to get up and get kids dresses and to the bus stop. unfortunately, it also means my kids are gone about a week at a time with their dad. that's not the bad part. the bad part is that when they come back, it takes almost a week to get the back to the way they are somewhat suppose to act! it's like they go over there and there are really no rules, they do what they want, when they want. not to mention that their nannie (who they stay with while their dad is working) is very sick and having issues with her mental health. falling in the bathroom, saying she is getting lotion for keigan, only keigan wasn't there. arguing that its morning when its 8 at night...the list goes on. i was told that neither of them would be left alone with her, but that was a lie. dawson was left to care for her on day 1 of their visit. oh well, what can i do about it? nothing. i was told that he was left there to take care of her if anything happen...hello, he is only 11! it is not his job.

anyway, so they are home for a couple of days now, and will leave again friday to go spend fathers day weekend with their dad and then they will be back sunday evening or monday sometime. tomorrow we are going to the wave pool. i am excited about that.

i have some other things that are bothering me too, it too has to deal with the kids being at scotts. i don't call them everyday that they are with him because i want to give them time with their dad with out me interrupting them, but when i do talk to them, its like they feel that they can not talk to me, or that they have to hide stuff or something. i don't know how to explain it. my recent conversation with dawson went like this: "hey bud, what are you doing?" "just watching tv, i love you bye" "dawson, i am not finished talking to you! where are you at, what are you doing" him "ok, i love you, bye" me "what the hell is wrong with you, i asked you a question and i expect an answer, and i expect it now. i don't care who you are with, you will speak to me when i call" him, "we are at dads girlfriends house" so i asked where she lived, and i get a wrong answer yet again, and i  tell him to put his sister on the phone, who does almost the same shit! she is usually a chatter box, so this really set me off. i can't help but wonder how many different women scott is going to bring into their lives, and i did ask him that. he claims that this is the last one....if this relationship doesn't work out. hello, you should know if its something serious and going to work, at least for a while, before you bring the kids into the picture.

yes, bob and i officially got together days before my divorce was final, but we had been hanging out, JUST AS FRIENDS, for a while, and then it was the end of october before i let him meet the kids, and that was at his request. i told him my thoughts as to why i did not want him meeting them, and he assured me that he was not going to walk out of our lives, so here we are, almost 2 years later.

well, i guess that is enough of my rants for now....i have a lot of stuff to get done before i can take these kiddos to the wave pool tomorrow, so i better get to it.

8:51pm